my story

fighting

Every day of my life was a challenge, until the day when it was a challenge to stay alive. It all started with coughing blood now and then, constant headaches, stomachaches, and so on.  Finally, I decided to go to the doctor and see what was going on with me. I didn't tell my parents about it because I didn't want them to worry. I came in they took some tests and told me to go home and rest till the results come back. For the whole week, I was getting sicker and sicker. After a week I got called in and the doctor was looking at me strangely. I was really confused why was he looking at me like that? I asked him if everything was fine with me and then I came. I'm sorry but I have some good and bad news. What would you like first? Good, I said, okay, so the sickness you have can be treated. Ok, and what's the bad news? You have cancer, just flew out of his mouth. I sat there in shock. What, I asked. What do you mean? I'm sorry y/n, but it's bad and you're getting sicker. You need to stay here and we need to contact your parents, he said. Please I will stay here but don't call my parents, I'm not ready to tell them that their daughter can die. Please give me some time, I will tell them when I'm ready I just need time. Fine, he says. But you need to be there 5 times a week for tests and medication and then we will see how that goes. Thank you very much I say, and they show me the room I'll be staying in. I went that evening home and cried the whole while I packed my bag. I felt dumb because I didn't go sooner, I waited till now when I can die any second. There wasn't anything that I could do now, even tho I want to live I kinda want to die. For who should I live, my parents? They already have a son that they love much much more than I do. But it didn't matter I wanted to get better for myself. I packed my bag and waited till my parents went to their room, I didn't know where my brother was since he was rarely home. I took my stuff and went out I called an uber and waited outside. The uber came and took me to the hospital, it was late but I came in and told them I was already here today and I already have a room. The nurse comes with me and shows me everything and tells me that if I feel unwell I can call her anytime. I thanked her and she left I started to unpack my stuff. I didn't feel very well so I decided to take a walk outside a bit. I took my phone with me and went outside. There weren't many people since it was already late. I sat on the bench next to a boy that was already there. I looked at him but his eyes were closed, I came a bit closer and his eyes opened. You know that it's rude to stare, he said. What? I asked. Why were you staring at me, he asks. I'm sorry I wasn't meaning to disturb you, I say as I slowly stood up. He pulls me by my hand back down, stay, he says. Are you new here? What do you mean new, I asked. I didn't mean new but I haven't seen you here before that's what I mean, sorry, he said. It's fine and yes I am new, came not a while ago. Oh, and can I ask if that's wrong is that too personal? No, ehm I have cancer and I'm sick so yea, I said while looking down at my feet. I'm sorry, he said quietly. No, it's fine. What's up with u if I can ask? Oh no, I'm here because of my mom she also has cancer. I'm sorry, I said. it's fine she will get better. I'm Miles btw, y/n I say. Well nice to meet you y/n. I gotta go now we will see each other again. Sleep well y/n, he said. You to Miles. He made me smile and almost no one can do it that fast. The whole night I thought of him, I wished for him to be here now and just talk to me. Y/n wake up, what was wrong with me I just met him and I'm already thinking of him...