slient nights

still in hell

Phil's P.O.V.

I can't believe I did that, why did I do that? What's wrong with me? Am I really this desperate to fit in? How could I feel bad for him one moment, then punch him in the face? The thing that worries me the most is that he made no noise. Not a peep. He just lay there, not moving taking, everything we threw at him. Bullies always disgusted me, but now I'm one of them.. Maybe it was just a one time thing? Maybe I'm not actually a bully, just a kid who got pressured into the wrong thing? Stop making excuses for yourself Phil, you did what you did and you can't change it.

Dan P.O.V

I finally got up and started to make my way to the door. Then I stopped. I looked out and it was the blue eyed boy from before. He looked upset. I need to get out of here before he sees me. "Hey!", the kid shouted.. I walked faster and faster, but he caught up with me and grabbed my shoulder. I panicked and dropped to the ground and waited for the blows that never came.He looked down at me and sighed, "Who are you?"I tried to show him that I couldn't tell him. He just stared at me before he said., "You don't talk much, do you?'' I shook my head . He looked up and quickly looked back then raised his leg and kicked me hard again and again. Then as I was beginning to lose consciousness and pass out. He leaned down and said " watch it bitch."

Phil's P.O.V.

I can't believe I did that, why did I do that? What's wrong with me? Am I really this desperate to fit in? How could I feel bad for him one moment, then punch him in the face? The thing that worries me the most is that he made no noise. Not a peep. He just lay there, not moving taking, everything we threw at him. Bullies always disgusted me, but now I'm one of them.. Maybe it was just a one time thing? Maybe I'm not actually a bully, just a kid who got pressured into the wrong thing? Stop making excuses for yourself Phil, you did what you did and you can't