Pupille

2. tout tombe.

Everything falls
-tout tombe
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He was lost in thoughts about his life. At 6 am. Looking at the sun rise. He uh didn't know why but he knew that something is bothering him. He felt better last night after spending time with his best friend. Yoongi was the only person who he has now. No matter how hard he loved the world,the world does its duty in reality. He stared at the golden sky,so beautiful,more beautiful than his whole past life; well he told that to himself but actually,he deserved someone to tell him how beautiful he is. He deserved someone to look in his eyes and say that they love him.

Taehyung thought;
How alone he would be if Yoongi wasn't there. Now that Yoongi has a girlfriend too,he knew that he won't be able to look after him as it was. He wanted to change; no matter how much of a good person he was,he didn't get anything back which made him happier. He lost his only family,and that being in the most,most hurtful way..He wondered if his parents still cared about him and his sister. Do they know about all these? He didn't even know where they lived when he passed a letter with help of a friend of his who flew to Korea ages ago. He could bother no more.

Don't think about life and 'why me' so early in the morning. Damn!
His vintage furniture glowed in golden with the morning sunlight. He walked to the kitchen,and only if you were lucky in your life to have that view;
His brown strands falling to his eyes and his skin gleaming in golden light..he was a true beauty.
The most beautiful man you would never stop thinking about.

Yes he deserved this much praise more than anyone. 'Cause he was beautiful inside and out.
Believe me.

He hurried and took his breakfast and styled up to run to his studio.
He loved to waking up in the morning and take a morning walk to his studio and spend some quality time alone in his studio tidying up and such.
He smiled to everyone; boarder smiles for kids and elders. He dragged his eyes from people to his studio which were in sight to him by then.

Yeah right,people might be beautiful but the life and the days they walk in to might not be.
He should've hated the orange he saw in serene morning sky he was staring at. If he did,he could've more easily hated and gone mad about the glowing orange flames and dark gray clouds that were touching up the sky.

Only the flames and smoke,he didn't see his studio anymore.
"Mr. Kim..."
The owner of the coffee shop next to his studio patted his back.
Not only his studio,Mr. Patrick's coffee shop and the saloon and another stall next to that were on fire. There was a pretty much crowd there,they had to step away as the fire truck arrived.
"Mr. Kim I'm so sorry. Don't know how the fire started,it was around 5am and.."Mr. Patrick sighed.  
Taehyung nodded.
He was fallen in to pieces inside.
The photos he has taken,his professional cameras,and all the chemicals which costed him so much,and everything..were ashes under flames.
He shoved his hands into his pockets and walked to the park.

The sky was blue,like nothing happened. No clouds but If you looked at the right side,you could see gray clouds still running up to the sky.
At least,he got his favorite camera with him.

He didn't know how long he had been there.

"Taehyung?"
He looked up when he heard a familiar voice.
"Oh jungkook.." he smiled,his smile wasn't a smile anymore. It was clouded. If you look close you could see the tiredness of it.
Jungkook blinked twice,and realized.
"Taehyung.. um is your studio in the fifth lane?"

"It was"

Jungkook could hear Taehyung's screams. The pain. He could clearly understand,because that wasn't the same Taehyung he spoke yesterday.
"I'm extremely sorry"
"You don't have to be,it's alright"
He could see how much of a alright he meant. He could see and hear Taehyung's pain due to the loss.
It was his job. His hobby. His way to live the life.
Jungkook sat next to Taehyung and cleared his throat.
"Have you eaten,Taehyung?"

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"We are over"
Jungkook mumbled when Taehyung asked him how's his girlfriend doing.
"Wot???" Taehyung's eyes had grown larger;what he spoke was inaudible because of his mouth was filled with the bread.
Jungkook smiled,in pain.
"Yeah,she didn't come to meet today,which means.."
"Well YOU DON'T KNOW THAT!" Taehyung said in worry.
"I know very well. It's okay Taehyung. We saw it coming when we were here at the first place"
Taehyung blinked. Like the photos he had taken of them,their relationship burned in fire. It's all ash now.
"Are you alright now? I mean,I see it's not that easy..but you have to do something about this eh?"
Jungkook asked with concern,handing other a milkshake.
"Hm yeah..wh-what's this?? BANANA milk?seriously??" Taehyung shouted in shocked with the unexpected flavor.
"My favorite!! Why do you not like it?"
Jungkook asked slurping the last bit of the drink.
"Except for the coffee anything is alright"
Taehyung chuckled.
"Good to see you smiling again"
Jungkook pointed out,smiling back at the older.Taehyung smiled wider this time.
"We both went through a lot today"
"This's all about you Taehyung. I'm alright,'cause I've been knowing all along that this was to happen for us anyways. But not to you..you never saw that coming today."
Taehyung inhaled and nodded.

"Thanks Jungkook. It means a lot that you stayed with me here for hours. If you weren't here I'd be so down by now"
Jungkook smiled and nodded,
"I have to go now though,Taehyung. My parents have arranged me an occasion and I have to be there. I'll see you around"
"Yeah for sure. Thanks again "
Jungkook stood up and started to walk towards the road.
"Hey,Taehyung,I know that you took pictures of us that day. Can I have them?"

Before even Taehyung could look at jungkook,he could feel his tears riling up.
He didn't wanna turn his head so he said,
"They were in the studio,I'm sorry jungkook"
Silence.
"Oh..It's alright you don't have to be sorry..I was just wondering..Bye then"
"Bye"

Taehyung got up and walked toward the studio,found that the fire was all gone..the black and gray color substance were covering the floor. The frame of the building was still there. He stepped in,imagining his studio is still living there. He walked past burnt chairs,framed photos;and he found that the door to the dark room is still there.
He could see the hanging pictures on the string when he opened the door.
They were still there. covered in ash but still the scenes were there.
Happy people.
Smiling.
Loving each other.
But they're over now.
He thought about giving them to Jungkook because he asked about them,but he is probably trying to move on right? There's no point of giving them back to him.
No.
Don't be selfish Taehyung..
He told himself and his hands were in fits.
He slowly shoved his hands in to his pockets and pulled out the lighter.
It was the photo where jungkook was giving a peck on the girl's forehead..the already gone memory started to glow within orange flames..Taehyung stared at the blend of yellow,orange,blue and black flames swallowing the happiness of some people..and the flame being a disease to the next picture too,spreading on it and burning it a half way.
Taehyung suddenly took the photo out the string and stepped on it one,two,three more times.
He was glad that he saved it.
He saved HIS memory.
That smile he saw on jungkook's face,was still there; in black and white.
It suddenly began to rain and he could feel wetness on skin as there was no shelter.
He shoved the piece of paper in to his pocket and stepped out of the studio.

He smiled to the rain,rain responded him with thunder flashing across the late evening sky.
He should've stopped by a shop or a shelter. Because he would catch a cold,or worse,a fever if he get all wet in the rain. He has to think about everything with more force than usual,because he has to think about money and everything as he has no income now. He would have to pay the doctor if get sick. But why would he care? He didn't wanna care anymore. You can tell him not to give up but he's the one who's going through it. He's the one who knows how it feels. He wants to take a brake from everything and disappear in to somewhere where there's no one and nothing.

Disappear in to emptiness?

He needed somebody to tell him that he doesn't need to do that 'cause they are always with him.

He didn't even notice he was in front of the house walking like a zombie in the middle of the road in the heavy rain,until he heard someone calling his name.

Yoongi was there waiting for him in the doorstep and he was getting wet too. Taehyung instantly got worried and ran to unlock the door.
"sorry for keeping you waiting"
"It's okay Tae,get dried and take some rest"