Waves of memories| Free! Iwatobi swim club short RINXHARU

When will he notice me?

Rin:

His lips were lush and warm. Time seemed to stop in its tracks for us and we stared deep into each other's eyes. Surprise was plastered all over both of our faces and in our eyes but we didn't seem to care. He pulled away awkwardly, everyone was looking at us, whispering to them selfs. We didn't step apart, we just continued to look into our eyes. His blue as the ocean and mine as red as the roses in summer time. A small smile started to creep across my face but I stopped it from being noticeable to anyone. Soon my face began to become hot and flush, the exoneration of the experience left me panting.

I looked into his eyes for a short while before I came back into reality, our school gym. Pink rushed across my nose and cheeks as I looked across the sea of faces, starring. Haru didn't seem to be affected much. He just kinda stood there, silent, spaced out. Anger soon boils up inside me, he doesn't even notice me! Even after a accidental kiss he STILL doesn't notice me! WHEN WILL SENPAI NOTICE ME!！！！！！！Rage spills over inside me, I keeping it inside though, I don't need this in front of everyone. No one says a word, I just quietly walk into the change room. I can hear the class burst into conversation, but no one comes in to check on me, fine, no big. Tears were streaming down my face as I reached the vanity. My reflection stated at me, mentally screaming at it to reveal itself. Silent moments passed I pounded my fists against the tile vanity, pain shooting through my hands. Why can't I have him?

My thoughts stop as abruptly as my feet stop shuffling underneath me.

"Why can't I have him?"

The phrase rushed through my mind. Whizzing back and forth like the oceans rise on a breezy day, in then out of my thoughts. I stumble around, still sobbing. I don't know what I am feeling or why, why does it feel like a wooden mallet is being plunged into my chest when he swims and when he never looks at me twice. Yes, we are best friends but I don't know how he feels about me, he hasn't given me any hints to anything. I don't even know if he enjoys my company or if he even likes me. I look at myself in the mirror again, pale, tear stained, me. My mind has calmed down except for one image I cannot shake out of my mind. Him, and how much I cared about him. In that moment I had a appifiny. Haru wasn't my friend, or senpai. I don't think Haru is just a Senpai I think I, I'm in love with him. But, not a soul can know about it, ever.

I walked out of the change room, clean faced, ready to face my new world of secrecy.