Sarahs POV*
"Sarah...." i heard the male voice trail off as i looked over at him with a cheeky grin .
Lou walked over with a worried face as my bright and prominent smile began to fade, looking up at him.
"lou.." i sighed as i felt like i did what i did to zayn, i got overly clingy and now he doesn't want anything to do with me.
i felt like an utter idiot.
Louis knelt down on the floor like he was tying his VANS as i watched him worriedly.
"Louis... whats wrong?" my bottom lip trembled as he looked up at me, grinning.
"my dear, the love of my life, the spark to my flame, the light in my dark just my everything, you know i've been foolishly crazy about you since the eight grade but you'd never taken me on and Sarah. i know ive hurt you when i got all of those girlfriends but babe, this time everythings different, you made me see this world in a different view and i just need to ask you something" he said as he wiped the stray tear from my cheek as i coughed.
"Sarah i know im the shittiest most fucked up bestfriend on the planet, but will you marry me?" i felt a rush of tears trickle down my cheeks choking on my own words.
As i thought over in my head about the times we've shared and the amount of things he knew and the fact we lived together as i bit my lip looking down at the boy i had called my bestfriend for years on end.
"Louis William Tomlinson, i've called you my bestfriend for years on end and now, i'd be honoured to call you my husband" i bit my lip as he slid on the ring on my left hand as pulled him up and into a bear hug pressing a kiss to his pink lips.
As i looked over at the guy i knew would forever be mine.
Later that night i was writing in my journal about my successes and stresses within this time period.
I decided to get a new book as i wrote in the middle "ruined"
June 21st 2015
As you can see, the title of this entry says all, i am ruined.
I'm ruined because the one person i had fallen for left me and ripped my heart into pieces.
I'm ruined because the woman he left me for someone who was a thousand times more attractive.
i'm ruined because he left me without any trace.
i'm ruined because i wouldn't be finishing my last misson with him.
But
I'm Saved because the boy from doncaster finally came back.
I'm Saved because he fixed my heart.
I'm saved because he understands me.
I'm saved because i wouldn't mind having this great mans children.
I'm saved because im still loved, and i have friends that love me back.
I'm saved because the heartless misery left me.
I'm saved because i have Louis, Rali, Harry, Niall, Liam, and my father.
and I'm saved because i have the freedom to talk.
i smiled at the entry as i watched the sleeping boy on the bed as i combed the hair from his eyes the bags already packed to maximum capacity.
i didn't want to tell anyone the huge announcement yet as we still had a plan to get through and i wanted this to be done without having to wait once again and this time having my dad force me to do this, pregnant and married.
i rather do this while im engaged and happily not pregnant.
i wanted to do this while im engaged so just incase anything happens like im dead or disfigured, Louis can leave..
i didn't want him to be stuck with someone who needed more help than anything else.
i still didn't know why he wanted to marry me, i needed help either way..
but he still loved me and i had never felt that before, having someone who looks after you, or takes care of you. or having someone whos the big spoon and peppers your face with kisses a the time who understood your favorite things, always put you first and most importantly, we always said i love you in unison.
love wasn't a one way thing anymore in my life it was a two way street and i loved it.
i grinned over at my lovely boy as i crawled under the covers wearing his favorite pair of lacy lingerie as i looked over at his phone.
taking it off the dresser with a sheepish grin taking pictures and videos of him sleeping.
surprisingly he's still that heavy sleeper i met when i was 13.
i traced over the tattoos he had as i went through his camera roll one of my bad habits.
but he went through mine all the time the trust was super real.
there were some pictures of london as expected and cars.
but what through me off were the pictures of me at starbucks, and the skype screenshot.
i didnt even see him take out his phone when we were at starbucks the day i picked him up.
but i just shook my head i honestly didnt care.
i watched my ring shine in the dark night as i still hadn't felt sleepy, i walked out to the balcony the stars were lightened perfectly.
i felt two strong arms wrapped around me as i looked up.
"you shouldn't be out here half naked" he smirked.
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