Just Love Me

Somethings Not Right

Chapter 1

"So did yall?", My best friend Samiya asks me while staring me dead in my eyes.

"Girl no, it'll happen when it happens" I shrug and continue to watch the tv. Samiya is more anxious about me losing my virginity than I am. It's not like I'm holding onto it because I think its sacred or something. It's just my current boyfriend, Jeremiah, doesn't make me feel like I want it. I don't get that feeling from him that my friends talk about, whoever they be with.

Samiya blows out smoke from the blunt then looks over at me again, "What's stopping you?". I just look down feeling kind of embarrassed. She's my best friend, I shouldn't be but when it comes to her and sex, she doesn't see how people can not want it.

"Timing I guess."

She looks at me with a straight face, "Timing?" She passes the blunt.

"Yup" I nod my head while I inhale. I can tell she's not convinced but I don't care to be honest. She finally lets the conversation go and I can finish smoking in peace. Without a damn interrogation. "Okay Lahni"

Two blunts in and I'm high as fuck, shaking ass with Miya. She breathing heavy and shit this bitch needs to stop smoking before she fuck around and can't breathe.

I sit down on my bed scrolling through my playlist and I see songs I actually want to listen to and keep skipping cause none of my friends like my music. I try to play generic songs when they're around but sometimes I don't care and I put me first. "Girl I'm sick of shaking my ass I wanna listen to my damn music."

"You don't listen to nothing I like" Samiya rolls her eyes and plops on her bed.

"All you listen to is rap! And I do listen to it that's just not the only thing in my playlist" Expand your horizon babe I promise you it's more than Nardo and Lil baby out there.

"Kehlani you not slick I know what the fuck you want to listen to."

I just look at her and smile cause yea I love me some him and as I should he's the king. "Mmyea bitch and what about it? What you got against Michael?" Cause not too much on him.

She laughs, "Girl nothin' but every time we get high, he's the first person you wanna play" She right but Imma stay quiet. "But gone head and put it on, we been listening to my favs so far anyways."

I get happy and start playing the music again. I don't know what it is but when I'm any type of faded I love older music. I have to be in the right mood to listen to rap and even then after a while I wanna go back to what I usually listen to.

I look over and see Samiya singing along, "I thought you ain't like it?"

She shrugs and continues nodding her head, "He popped his shit on this one" I laughed and threw a pillow at her "Goodbye bro" She starts laughing with me and tells me to turn it up. And did.

A couple of hours later, Miya went home and I was on the phone with my boyfriend and fixing my wig. "How was work?'' I asked while tying the elastic band on.

"It was straight. What you did today?"

"It was cool, smoked with Samiya and we chilled. I ain't really do much today." I got in my bed and layed back with my phone balanced on my chest.

"Lemme come see you."

"Aw, you miss me?" I tease smiling.

He laughs, "Yea I wanna come feel on you." He says that meaning he wants to cuddle and he wanna be babied. Or at least that's how I take it.

"It's late and we got school tomorrow."

"I can't wait till this shit is over" He groans.

I let out a light laugh, "Well we got three more months left, we got it. But you know what's in two months?" I ask cheesing.

"Of course, bae, I asked you to be mine almost a year ago."

"Yea, a year with yo ass. I don't know how I did it." I say dramatically.

"Cause you in love with a nigga. The real question is how the fuck I put up with that mean ass attitude of yours"

"Not too fucking much, I don't be having an attitude.''

"Bae, you're spoiled."

"I'm well-loved."

He laughs, " If that's what you wanna call it, Imma start saying no-" he gets cut off cause someone else is calling him. It's 11:50 who the fuck is calling?

"Who's that?"

"Uh my homeboys, it's Jay and Kev calling from the group chat." Why does it sound like he is in a rush, what the fuck is going on?

"If it's important you can go, I'll talk to you tomorrow love you."

''I love you too bae, night." then he hung up quick as hell.

What the fuck, I know I'm not trippin. Maybe I am...let me call my friend.

I facetime Miya and sit up while I prop my phone up on one of my pillows. She answers while she is in her bathroom twisting her up. "Hey bestie" she smiles.

"Bitch..."

She pauses and hurry's up finishing her last twist and throws on her bonnet, "Hol on bitch lemme get in my room." she sprints to her room with her phone in her hand swinging. She goes to her desk and props up her phone "Okay go."

"So, me and Jeremiah were on the phone, right?"

She nods her head and takes out her lash brush and her lash shampoo, "Yea.''

"Tell me why he gets a call and gets to moving all hectic and shit."

"The fuck..."

"Right! So, I'm already thinking it's a lil odd that he getting a call at damn near midnight but I play it cool and ask who it is."

"As you should" She agrees while using her spoolie to fluff out her lashes.

"And he talm bout some uh it's my homeboys in the group chat. Now tell me what was the red flag in that."

"He talm bout some uh, the fuck you mean uh, are you confused?''

I nod my head and clap, "Exactly! He ain't neva been weird bout his homeboys calling. It's usually hol on bae jay and them calling. He's never hesitant."

She turns her ring light off and gets up then heads over to her bed, "Yea sum ain't right about that one."

"And this ain't the first time some shit like this happened, it happened like a week ago too and we were on facetime and he got a call and started acting funny then told me he would call back. He never called back but when I saw him the next day, he talm bout some he got busy and forgot."

She jerks her head back, "And what time was this?"

"Girl like 1 am.'' I roll my eyes.

"How the fuck busy could you get at 1 am?"

"My point exactly. You think he doggin me out, Miya?" My tone dropped cause this is the first time I've said my suspicions out loud and the realization is giving me mixed emotions.

Miya looks at me sadly, "I think you should look into it. Get that nigga phone and look through it maybe we're overanalyzing everything." She doesn't believe that shit, Samiya is a very firm believer of dtn. I know she's just saying that to make me feel better. "Till then, don't trust niggas for life!"

We laugh together hard as fuck, this bitch stupid.