One minute you’re head over heels for a guy. You honestly believe you love him and the whole world suddenly revolves around you and him. You want to be with him forever and he tells you he feels the same way. You feel the happiest you’ve ever been. You would do anything for him and he would do the same. He and you are perfect. Nothing can make you feel different. You have never fought or had little disagreements with him. Ever. Your life can’t get any better because you feel as if it is already at its absolute best. You can't seem to stop smiling. Everything around you seems perfect.
Then, something happens and that love turns into disgust and hatred. The happiness becomes sadness and depression. There’s a hallowed out hole where your heart used to be. Life feels like it can never get better. You feel like shit and you’re too sad to do anything… so you just mope around at home. You binge and feel bad about binging so you either purge or binge even more. You replay the breakup in your head over and over and every time you make it seem worse than it really was. You feel like you will be forever alone because you feel completely alone even if you are surrounded by people.
That’s called falling for a guy. Falling is the key word… in the moment of the fall, adrenaline pumps and once you finally reach the bottom, it feels like there is no way to get up. But during the fall, what you don’t realize is that you’re falling into an ocean. You don’t realize it because your eyes are closed—allowing you to only pay attention to certain things. When you first hit the water, you’re caught by surprise. Once you get out of the shock, you realize that there is a way to survive. All you need to do is swim up to the top and then you’ll be free.
