So last night was the cotton ball spell. You place 8 cotton balls in your mouth and unleash all your grievances, fears, self doubts and anxieties. I even screamed a few times. Okay, it's supposed to be just your fears but I rolled in everything that drives me to the brink of a panic attack most nights. My dogs thought I was crazy.
After speaking my ills into the cotton I took a bath. In the bath I needed to add coconut milk and three basil sprigs. Check. Sit in the bath for 20 minutes. Get out of the bath and dress in clean white clothing. Done.
Light 3 white candles one for peace, one for clarity and one for the soul. Very self help like. I decided to sure up the candle ritual by creating a circle, and burning the cotton balls to send my fear to a fiery hell. It was weirdly satisfying. I've never been a big fan of fire, and it took a lot to get the saliva soaked balls to light (they actually didn't burn all that well, which is supposed to be a bad sign), but it was fun watching all my anxieties smolder.
Part of my take away from last nights spell was it worked because I was able to let all my anger, frustration and fears out. My sense of calm came from the act itself, not the magic Hogwarts stuff that's supposed to happen. Although I'm not leaving that out. There could be more that fallows in the coming days, and if that happens (like I win the lotto or something) I'll let y'all know.
Haven't pick the spell I'll do tonight.
I know these spells are more self help-y then earth shattering magic, but I'm just learning people! Hopefully I'll be on my magic game and can start summoning some wizardry to help right the powers that be here in the US. Watch out those of you making the lives of Women, LBGTIA, black and brown people a misery. I've got my staff pointed firmly in your direction.
