Inner submissive

Part 3

Tw: Domestic Abuse and self hatred

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"Hey Harley I'm just going to the bathroom really quick can you take over?" I asked straightening my top and shorts.

"Yeah of course" she smiled back

I smiled back as I rushed to the staff bathroom downstairs.

Once inside I locked the doors and stared at myself in the mirror. What the fuck did you just do.

Why did I like that.

I sat down on the toilet as I felt the tears roll down my face.

He hit me and I liked it. What kind of a freak am I. After everything I went through and how hard I fought to escape him here I am letting a guy hit me and getting wet from it.

I stayed like that bailing my eyes out for what felt like hours before I cleaned myself up.

I fixed my makeup and smiled in the mirror. It was a little trick I used to do to make myself seem fine despite what was really happening.

A convincing smile is all it takes to fool those around you.

Once I returned to the bar I took over from Harley and let her get back to her job.

The night passed by relatively quickly after that. Before I knew it my shift was over and I was heading downstairs to grab my stuff.

Once inside I checked my phone to see if Alex was ready because I sure as hell was ready to leave.

I text him and waited patiently for a reply.

"Omg hey gal" Jessica squealed as she entered the room.

"How was the black room?" I asked

"You will never guess who was there" she smiled back clearly still buzzed up from her night.

"Am let me see the queen?" I replied sarcastically.

"No you bitch," she giggled.

"-it was the owner and a few of his friends or something"

"Oh no way I've never met him"

"Yeah same until tonight and let me tell you what a god he was" she giggled.

"Does someone have a crush on our boss" I tease her.

"No seriously Danika if you saw him you would freak"

Our conversation was cut short as my phone started to ring. Looking down I saw it was Alex calling.

"Hi Alex I'm ready whenever you are I'm just grabbing my stuff" I said as I put my jacket on and grabbed my bag.

"Perfect I'm waiting by the downstairs bar"

"Be there in 5" I tell him as he hangs up.

"Gotta go babe" I smile as I hug Jessica goodbye.

Walking towards the bar I try to clear my head of the earlier insistent forcing myself to keep it together until I get home.

"Ready" Alex asks as he grabs my arm causing me to flinch away slightly.

"Oh shit sorry I didn't see you" I replied zoning back into what was happening.

"Danika is everything okay" he asked looking down at me.

"Yeah it's just been a long night" I say through a forced smile.

"Can we please leave"I beg before he asks me more questions.

"After you " he replies pointing towards the door.