Two Hearts One Love

The Past

Part 1

Well let's start off by saying my name before we get into the juicer stuff known as my supposed love life. Well it's Emily Ross not the coolest name but that doesn't stop me from trying to be the coolest. Boys have never really liked me before but the way Alex made me feel, feels illegal as I feel casted upon a spell. We started talking but even when he wasn't around I thought of him. His fluffy hair that is brown with a tint of gold and his deep forest green eyes that I got lost in. his soft hands that hold me close to him and his sent on his clothes. He gave me his hoodie to wear and I did all day every day with the sent of him left on it .Our first date was to the beach we basked in the sun while watching the sunset. He grabbed my hand pulling me toward the blue lake and when the sand and water met my feet I felt a shiver but continued as I had no fear with him. He pulled me into him hugging me close looking down at me that was the night we shared our first kiss as the calming heat from the sun was on my skin and the light cool water on my legs and my hands gliding up his back to his hair as if it was just me and him and no one else mattered. He wrapped his arms around me tighter pulling me under the water with him and as I felt my air leave my lungs I felt safe with him holding me. Somehow this ended up with a breakup but I couldn't let go the feeling of safeness and calmness his touch left me with was intangible and I could only relive it with him no one else... Years later I met him.. his name is Landon yes he is kind nice and gentle yet it's not the same as what I had before. He doesn't have fluffy hair, he doesn't have forest green eyes, his hands aren't soft and he doesn't leave the sent I really want. We talk on the phone late at night he gives me comments on my looks he's funny but not as funny as Alex. We went on a date but it was awkward and different then when I was with Alex. Alex was sweet and caring he always checked on me but Landon likes when I check up on him. Me and Alex started to talk to each other and even these little chats we have make me miss all of it. I'm scared what I say to him and if I say to much cause of how badly I want it back. Before me and Alex broke up I went to a family dinner with him and met his parents after we went to his room and he played video games while I played with his hair and he turned his chair to me picking me up and grabbing my hair gliding his finger tips over my cheek moving in closer kissing my lips. He took his hat off and put it on my head and then laid me on his bed and he jumped on with a smile on his face while I was giggling (he's so cute) he wrapped his hands around my body holding me tight cuddling me and kissing my cheeks. I also went to Landon's house to meet his family then we went to his room but as I sat on his bed I just wanted Alex, I didn't know how to talk to Landon as he wasn't who I wanted. He sat next to me on his bed and asked if he could cuddle me and I said sure as he laid down I laid next to him and he awkwardly pulled me in close putting his hands around my waist playing with my hair. ( it's been years Emily get over it Landon is here now Alex is not get to know him). The other half wants me to crawl back to Alex so badly but I know he doesn't want me back. As I was the one who broke him.