runaway girl

chapter 1

I was born to a beautiful country with pretty toxic people; atleast based on my experiences.I have been living on this country for decades and let me tell you it's very emotionaly draining, you will always have people judging you and who wants your own family to be telling you your too skinny your too dark, aren't families supposed to make you feel safe not make you feel insecure. I guess that's probably why I wanna get off of this country so bad, all it's ever done to me is make me feel bad about myself, I just wanna escape that. I wanna runaway

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I unfortunately was born to  cold parents, my dad was not so talkative to me or to anyone even, and my mom just always seem to not like him; as far as I could remember he is always so cold even to he's only daughter, he was never sweet and hardly ever spend any time with me or even actually bond with me. When I was about four I had to live to my moms cousin's house with my grandma to take care of me and my cousin couse my mom had to work at another city that wbrother
ar from a away from our hometown. I didn't complain tho, the fact that I was only a child and didn't have a say was one of the reasons I ended up in my cousins door step. The other reason is that me and my mom are very close to that cousins of mine but their not really my coisins more like my mom but since their just around my age we just tell people tht were cousins to avoid explaining. And them being around my age made me so close to them like my brothers and sister plus me living at their house made a bond between us that I will never let someone break no matter what. Those cousins of mine that I was talking about, there are three of them one girl who is the oldest like we have like 10 or 13 year age gab and the middle child one is one of the two boys he is 7 or 6 years older than me but I feel like I'm much closer to him couse the youngest one of them is only two years older than me and when I tell you he is like Satans child when he was a child; it's almost lke he wants me dead or sumthin couse he used to be so mean to me back in the days like he would always tease me to where i would cry but all of then do that to me tho, they would always make me cry while I was still living there but luckily my grandma was there to defend me and comfort me when ever they make me cry she and my mom always say to me it's their way of showing me they love and care about me; I use to always belive them couse it's true but those teasing didn't really helped me in the future.

Sadly as much as I enjoyed living at my cousins with my grandma it was one of the places some of my traumas were made; I loved living with my cousins we got closer the adults  were always adoring me couse I gatta admit I was one little beauty when I was a child so I got the love and attention  I want but I can't help but feel like something else was missing almost like the love part was not the love I needed at that age, and I soon figured out what it was. my mom

I was missing my mom.

me having no phone and not being able to see her made me crave a mothers care. My grandma and grandpa was not much of a help either couse they always favorite my youngest cousin who I now consider as my btother. They say he had been through alot already couse when he was born  my grandma ask his mother if he will even survive couse she said he was so smelly when he got out of the womb and insanely small compared to normal size new borns. And he got into a car accident when he was like a toddler, luckily my grandpa was there and he covered him with he's body to save him couse he loves him and all. But despite my grandparents favorites it didn't really effect our closeness.we were still very close and I see him as my elder brother. But I was still missing my mom so much I remember sitting at the porch waiting for my mom. thinking she would come and pick me up. but she never did. But atleast I wasn't alone when my cousins started school and my grandma was the one to take care of them so she had to be at their school 24/7.I had a friend there. he's name is joseon we would always play together, he was our neighbor's son. But my family and his family didn't really have a great relationship.and i never really new why, butmaybe its because.....his family is the complete opposite of my family. Which couse some misunderstandings.

First chapter lets goo
And i actually took the photo on top of the story

Ok I'm going to sleep now byee