Why is it that I can't stay calm?
I do just fine at home
But at home I'm told to "shut it" "shut up" "can u stop singing for once?!?! DAMN!"
I suppose here at school it's no better.
Instead I just annoy more people.
"Quit singing" "stop singing plz"
"Shut it" shut up"
So then where, I ask u where can I have an escape. When can I finally escape it all?
I want to run away. To somewhere I am free. Somewhere I'm not judged
Somewhere I'm accepted. And even embraced.
But I might as well be asking the impossible. I might as well ask to have been born normal. I might as well wish to not exist.
But if I'm so much of a bother
Then why am I even here
Why do I WASTE my time
Aiming to be something I'm not
Aiming to be something I'll never be
Why should I bother
Why should I EVEN try
Why open my heart up
If I'm just going to get hurt
Why get close to people
Only for them to pull away
But I get the message
I get it loud and clear
So I'll give you all space
And I'll hide for a bit
Fading into the background
Getting lost in my thoughts 😕
-DeJay
YOU ARE READING
shut down
PoetryI'd like to think that I'm relatively confident in myself in who I am at this stage of life...but backhanded comments from everyone around you could cause doubt.
