_Mixed Feelings..._
You're gone..My heart's broken...
Tell me why "goodbye" was your only word spoken.
I'm lost and hurt and feeling down.
There's a puddle of my tears in which I will drown.
My heart is filled with sorrow and my eyes full of tears.
I don't care if you come back, just stop the hurt.
Because I don't care if you want to die. I won't let you.
I'm dying inside, because my heart is killing me.
I realize that, as much as I wish, he isn't coming back.
And he had given me that white rose, as fake as his feelings.
"I made the biggest mistake, I'm so damn sorry."
But sorry isn't enough sometimes. But that doesn't mean you're unforgivable.
My heart beat races every time I say it
You know the words as well as I do
so will you them to me? I love you
I stand here alone because of what I have done,
I didn't mean to....but I had to.
I had to forget about you....so I killed you.
there's nothing to do...
So stay here and be worthless,
like i was to you!!
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_Blah blah blah_
me: "Wow, and you still break your promises, especially to me?"
him:"what promise i never keep my promises haha
me: "Alright, Alex. Answer me this: do you love me, and have you ever loved me at all?"
him:"For the first two months, hell yeah, but it kinda faded after that hahahahahahhha."
me:"So, are you saying that you don't love me unless I drink with you?"
him:"Pretty much. I don't date girls unless they drink with me."
me: "Then why are you dating me?"
Him:"Haha idk!"
me:"fine, see you later. have a good night, Alex."
him:"Wait, wtf! what did I do?"
Me:"You just said you don't love me unless I drink with you, which I won't do."
him:"Oh yeah haha."
me:"Wouldn't you prefer to go hit on girls now?"
Him:"Oh yeah good idea brandon! damnit where is he I cant stand up lol"
me:"Goodnight Alex."
him:"goodnight sweetheart"
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_I Love You_
I think back to all those months..
you talked to me everyday..
