𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐢𝐝𝐨𝐥𝐢𝐚

𝐏𝐮𝐫𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐒𝐦𝐨𝐤𝐞

Dreams Dreams Dreams
Odd, entrancing, suffocating, our mind is unfocused, this room is a mess
We keep staring at that stain, on the grossly painted green wall.
We examine out hands, each line  and the dirt in our finger nails
She said not to question him
Not to say his name
To try not to think about him, but he's all you think about now...
Those endless shelves of books and scrolls, the incense burning from gold cases
So few lanterns...
The floors of polished marble, that announced each step you made
Bare foot and bare bodied
There where so many, they're faces undecipherable
No. I can't think about that
I have to go, I'll be late
I take a cold shower and pack my bag
Notebook, pens, power bank, phones, charger, and whatever else I think I might
Need, she's still so distracted
I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know what any of this means
Lilac skies, my lavender head tie,
The morning glories blooming in the gutters out back
Our magenta bedsheets
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At the corner of my eyes, even down the brightly lit corridors,
In the dark corners of our room
At my bedside... underneath my blanket
I can't... I can't do this
But we have to, we need to
My mouth tastes like copper, my chest hurts, my eyes blur,  my head aches to an unfamiliar tune,
Bluish black lips....velvet curtains
An outstretched hand.

Kettles singing, ceilings creaking
Scratches....
Scratches on glass....
Both our window and mirror are covered
It must be the rats.

Doors slamming, the winds picked up
It's dark enough
Where am I?

Maggots in the sink
Footsteps going down the stairs
The railing creak
Are you listening?
Of course you aren't,
Go check the bathroom right now!
Don't keep read go check first

.are you back?
Did you even go at all?
It doesn't matter either way
We're in danger...
The both of us
Yes "Us".
Do you remember what he said to her
You were there with me
Before we woke up
Before we were stolen
But we weren't, we were safe at home
Ask ruby when you see her..
The drives are long and I always fall asleep
Do you believe?
I do I'm not entirely sure why I'm writing this maybe it's cause I'm lonely
Maybe I'm dreaming... How else would you be here
Do you get lost in it too...
The purple smoke
It's hard to leave, it's hard to wake up
Promise you'll wake me up?
Please don't leave me alone
Not there with the twisted trees and  grey water
Not there with the singing  anthills
And the holes
The foul smelling holes .where the scratching is much louder
The half eaten figs littered everywhere
I don't think you can hear me..
Should I still scream?, My eyes are heavy

I'm falling asleep....
It's loud, why is it loud
Why Is the dark loud?
I feel someone breathing on neck
I can't move, I can't speak
I'm being held down
I'm awake
I can breathe
But I can still hear them
Who? I don't know
Maybe you can tell me