Love and War

Moving On

It wasn't long before they pulled up in front of her building. "You gonna be okay man?" The cabby asked Nick as he stumbled out of the cab. "Yeah." Nick grunted as he tossed some money to the man before staggering into the building, being let in by a sweet old lady who smiled at him as he entered. He pulled himself up the stairs to her apartment and knocked on the door. Olivia was startled awake by his knocks, wondering who on earth could be at her door at two in the morning. Just to be safe, she grabbed her gun and cautiously approached the door and looked through the peephole. Seeing it was just Nick, she exhaled loudly and put her gun away before opening the door. "Nick," she greeted him, surprised to see him, "what are you doing here?"  Nick was leaning up against the door frame and looking at with severely glazed over eyes. "I couldn't do it, Liv." He said, obviously wasted. "I couldn't go home." He stumbled a little and Olivia grabbed him to keep him from falling before leading him inside. "So you raided a distillery instead?" She plopped him on the couch and he laughed. "Oh Liv, you are so funny. I just love that about you." Olivia returned from the kitchen and handed Nick a glass of water. "Thank you Nick." She said with a sigh. She walked over to a hallway closet and pulled out a blanket and a pillow. Walking back over to the couch, she sat the items on the arm and placed a hard on his shoulder. "Alright," she said, "get some sleep and we'll talk in the morning. Goodnight Nick." She gave his shoulder a soft squeeze before turning away and walking back towards her bedroom.

"How could she do this to me, Liv?" Nick was sobbing now, the first time he'd allowed himself to break down since finding out. Stunned in her tracks, Olivia quickly turned around and sat down next to him on the couch. She put her arm around his neck and pulled him into her so that his head was resting on her shoulder. She soothed him as his sobs made his body jerk and shake and his cries became audible. It broke her heart to see someone she cared for so deeply hurting like this. Nick really was a good man and it baffled her how Maria could hurt him like this.

After a few minutes, Nick sat up straight and wiped his tears away. Olivia put her hand on his after he'd rested it on his leg. She looked at him, watched him closely. It was like she was seeing him for the first time. She couldn't shake this feeling in her gut. Seeing him so vulnerable was making him so attractive and desirable. She mentally kicked herself for thinking such a thing at an inappropriate time such as this. He was her friend, he was hurting and needed support. And plus, he was probably still in love with Maria. "Nick," she said softly, "I am truly sorry for what you're going through. You don't deserve this pain and humiliation she's causing you." Olivia was getting a little angry thinking about what she'd done to him. "A real woman would never do something so cruel to a man like you." Nick looked up at her. "A real woman like you?" He asked. His question stunned and embarrassed her. Even after what she'd done, he probably did still love her and not want her to be insulted. "I'm sorry Nick, I didn't mean anything by that. I understand that you still love her and want to stand up for her." Nick's brows furrowed. "No Liv, I don't." He took her hand. "My feelings for her walked out that door with her when she left with that man." He paused for a few seconds. "I hate her." Olivia sighed and pulled Nick into a hug as he began to cry again.

They sat there like that for a while before they finally pulled away but they didn't let go of each other. They just gazed into each other's eyes. Nick knew at that moment what he wanted and he decided to go for it. He leaned in and kissed her which shocked her and she pulled away. "Nick, I don't think that's a good idea." Olivia said, standing up, even though she liked it and didn't want to stop. Nick looked at her, his eyes begging and still moist with tears. "Please, Olivia." He pleaded, "I need you." She was still for a moment, trying to rationalize this. Finally, she thought "screw it". She held out her hand to him and he took it. She led him to her bedroom and he closed the door behind them. Feeling nervous, Olivia sat down on the bed and watched him in the moonlight that bathed her room through the window. He locked eyes with her as he removed his shirt. She smiled at him, approving of what he was doing and encouraging him to continue. He pulled off his shoes and socks before removing his pants. When he was only in his boxers, he looked up at her and said. "Are you sure about this Liv? Do you really want this?" Olivia smiled and nodded. "Yes Nick," she replied, "I want you." He returned her smile then removed his boxers. She gasped at the sight of him, his beautiful naked body on display for her and her alone.

Once he was undressed, he approached her and removed her t-shirt and sweatpants then stepped back to admire her. "So beautiful," he whispered. She blushed as the butterflies flooded her stomach. What was happening and why was she okay with it? Using her elbows, she pulled herself up to the top of the bed and Nick crawled on top of her. He brushed his finger along her cheek and they stared into each other's eyes before he began kissing her again. Their bodies melted together and they couldn't deny the heat and desire between them.

Nick was reserved with every move he made. This was new territory for both of them and he wanted her to be completely comfortable with everything that happened. He was using one hand to support his weight on top of her and the other hand started at her cheek and then slowly moved down her body to rest at her hip. He caressed her hip bone with his thumb as he continued to kiss her. He wanted to take it slow and savor this moment and experience with her. He wasn't sure if he'd ever get the opportunity to have her again so he wanted to make it count and be present in the moment.

Finally, he went for it as he moved his hand from her hip and slid a finger inside her. She moaned softly at the penetration and tangled her fingers in his hair as they continued to kiss ferociously. He moved his finger around inside before picking himself up a little bit and entering her completely. They both let out loud moans and heavy breaths. It was a pretty intense feeling for Nick; it had been quite some time since he'd made love to a woman. He and Maria had made love when she returned home almost two months ago and she hadn't touched him since. He was pretty sure it was just the excitement of finally being together again after her being gone for so long that led to the wild, passionate sex they had. That happening had given him hope for his marriage; no one could fuck somebody like that and not mean it. But clearly, he had been wrong and now he was moving on.

He couldn't stop looking at her as he rhythmically rolled his hips back and forth, going in and out and in and out of her again and again and again. There was something different about this encounter than all the hookups he'd ever had before. He not only was feeling intense sexual pleasure but also emotional arrousal as if all his senses and emotions had been awakened at once. "Oh Nick," Olivia softly whispered, her head tilted back and her eyes closed. "More. Please." He looked down at her, "You want more carino?" She opened her eyes to meet his gaze and he gave her one of his signature half smiles. All she could do was smile back and nod. With this, he began moving in and out of her harder and faster, causing her moans to come out in repetitive gasps. He laid his head in the crevice of her shoulder and neck as she scratched at his back. He began placing soft kisses on her neck, never wanting to stop. The warmth of her body sent shocks through him, and he couldn't get over the way she was making him feel in that moment.

He began to slow his pace down again, not ready for the moment to be over. He replaced his rough thrusts with slow, sensual movements making her hum in pleasure. Placing his hand under her right knee, he pulled her leg up slightly and caressed her thigh. Her eyes were closed as she savored the feeling of having him inside her. Finally, she looked up at him and with a devilish smirk said, "Okay, now the grand finale. Really give it to me baby." Those words and her voice sent chills down his spine, and he obeyed as he began slamming into her again. The two of them grunted in unison as he began to reach his climax. He lowered himself down, wrapping one arm around her and continuing to use the other to support himself. He was right on the edge, and he wanted to be as close to her when that moment happened. Tightening his hold on her, he let out a loud moan as he finished inside her before flipping over and lying next to her. The two of them lay there panting hard and staring at the ceiling.

It took several minutes for either of them to speak but finally, Olivia sat up and said, "Well, it's late so you can crash here and we'll talk about this in the morning. Okay?" Nick rolled over onto his side and propped himself up before smiling that sexy smile at her and responding, "Yes ma'am." She blushed at him before getting up and going to the bathroom to clean herself up. She sat on the edge of the tub for a few minutes replaying what had just happened in her head; she was in shock. How could she let that happen? She was his sergeant, his commanding officer, his boss; it was beyond inappropriate for the two of them to be engaging in sexual activity together. But damn, was it so good! She wanted him and she knew he wanted her too. They would just have to be careful and take it very slowly; and absolutely no one could know about it. She took a deep breath and stood up before exiting the bathroom. Nick was already asleep when she returned to the bed and Liv couldn't blame him. He'd been awake for two days straight and had a whirlwind of a day today with everything that happened. No wonder he knocked out so fast, and she was happy about that. They would figure everything out before work tomorrow and everything would be okay. Pulling back the comforter, she climbed into bed next to Nick and very slowly fell back asleep.