A search for love/life

The angel

Okay so...first day of school sucked. When I came home and my mom saw me, she knew... And just started yelling at me, and fighting with me for "being that way", or for "not being normal" she said...My sister yelled at her, for screaming with me and fighting with me even do it's not my fault... I started crying and the first thing my mom said to me after that was - Why are you crying? I thought you were a man, oh wait! You're not a real man anyway. -
I can't believe she said that, she is my mom! Wasn't supposed to protect me and take care of me? I couldn't stay in that place anymore, so I ran to my room and locked the door, and there I was... Crying, alone, not feeling like myself.
Next thing I noticed was the sun, already?! I did my best to look like I had slept well, so my sister would not worry. I'm just going to wash my face, put some clothes and go to my school.
- Are you okay?- my sister asked me before I leave the house. Not wanting to lift my face, I just said yes and left.
I'm at school now, and right after I entered, a teacher come right at me, and she said- Hello! My name is mr. Kaity, nice to meet you! Look I know you are new here, at some guys are REALLY assholes sometimes, so... If they do something to you, or if you just need to sit down in silence for a second, you can come to my class okay?- That was weird... Nice! But weird
-thank you, but I don't know where your class is...- She looked at me, thinking I guess
- Come with me!- She said, I mean... She scared me! - You have class just in 15 minutes right? I can show you really quick!- I think she was happy, i don't know... I didn't had anything to do so I agreed.
After we pass the hallway and turned right, she said- it's here! You can come in if you want to -her room is... Amazing! The lights were not so bright, had some blankets, in the wall had the sign language alphabet and I think I saw some fidgets toys too! I was happy and surprised, so I asked
-What this room is for? What do you teach? Can I really come here? Will I get in trouble?-
-ok ok calm down- she smiled - I take care of special students, that sometimes need more care than the others
I don't know why but I... Started crying, when I looked up and she saw me, she hugged me, without asking or saying anything. After that I cleaned up my face and she asked me if I'm ok now, I said yes with my head
-Great then! Anytime you need anything, you can come here okay? I'm by your side sweety! Now go to your class!
Shit, my class, I totally forgot! I had 2 minutes to go to my class before the bell rings so let's say... I went faster than zen bolt.
Okay lunch time, again, I'm just gonna grab my bag, put my headphones and... Are you serious? With me being me, I totally forget my noise canceling headphones at home, ARE YOU KIDDING ME?
So changing plans... I'm gonna grab my bag at my locker, and go to Mr. Kaity class, and be there until lunch is over. My only problem is... The hallway.
Way before I noticed I was already overwhelmed by the people and the noises, everyone was in the opposite direction I was going, so basically, they were almost k!lling me. When I could see my locker *finally*, someone accidentally hit me and I fell into the floor... Nobody noticed, nobody cared, I was no one in the middle of nowhere. I didn't see or hear anything, but at the same time, everything single thing was in my head, loud, and consuming me. Shaking, crying and doing everything so I don't have another meltdown, I feel something in my shoulder... A hand? When I look up, I thought I saw an angel, with beautiful and shine red hair, soft white skin, eyes amber that shine in the light and littles freckles on your face
-Are you okay?- he really sound like an angel, I could hear his voice for an entire day. -here, grab my hand! Let's go to a quiet place.- I can't believe that this is happening! He hold my hand and helped me get up, taking everyone out of my way, I looked at his eyes and they... Showed his soul, a really, really kind and lovely soul.