Okay maybe it was the heat of the moment or something because all of the sudden the bathtub, my clothes, and my skin were covered in blood. I didn't know what I had done until I didn't feel anything except an excruciating pain in my thigh. then all the sudden I did it again except this time it was on purpose. maybe it was how all my emotional pain went away or maybe it was the way it felt, but I couldn't stop. I needed it and just like that it became an addiction.
