perfect | heehoon

heart to heart?

SUNGHOON'S POV

we're now seating beside the river, I was just staring at the view in front of me.

"love.." he started, I stared at him then looked at the view in front of me again.

"I told you hyung, we're now over." I said more calmer than earlier, while he was away. I realized something that hurt me but at the same time it made me realized that things wouldn't work out if you don't talk with them.

"hyung..I have a question please answer me honestly." I said, he stared at the before nodding.

"do you feel happy when you see me?" I asked looking at him, he slowly nodded.

"do you still remember me everytime you sleep?" He nodded again.

"do you still love the way how I call you hyung?" I asked, he nodded again.

I kept questioning him related to our relationship.

"do you still love me?" I asked, he was hesitant but then nodded, the moment I saw him being hesitant that was the moment I knew he fell out of love.

"if you truly love me, you wouldn't cheat hyung." I said.

"if you truly love me, you wouldn't kiss jake." I added, he was quite. He was not speaking.

"I'm starting to think that you didn't really love me hyung, you just saw jake hyung in me." I said, the more I think of it the more I get hurt. Me and jake hyung has many similarities.

"no sunghoon, it's not like that. I love you, I love you so muc-" I cut him off by kissing him.

"there's no sparks right?" I asked, he was shocked, "you have kissed the lips you were longing for last last week hyung." I said, bitting my lips.

"hyung admit it already, it's just you already who can't accept the truth."

"you fell out of love hyung."

"why can't you see?! You're making things worse for me! For us! You're hurting us!" I shouted at him, he was just staring at an empty space.

"I'm sorry hoon, I'm really sorry." He said I just smiled at him.

"It's fine hyung." I said, smiling at him.

"I just want you to know that I love you, I really do. But things don't work on how we wanted. I understand that you fell out of love hyung. I thought I'm the only one, I thought we can be happy and have our happily ever after...but I was wrong."

"I looked like a kid who was waiting for his prince and to kiss him and have their happily after, turns out I'm just a lesson who will teach you on your life. To have your character development."

"I was dumb to think that I can do better than jake, but still thank you. I felt comfort when you are beside me. I don't know you truly love me. How I wish I can just turn back time and I would stop it."

"I'm not your dan-oh anymore hyung..and you're not my haru anymore.."

"I will support you no matter what happens, but please hyung. I'm tired. What you did really hurt me. Years being with you I thought we were the one. We'll have our own story but I was wrong.." I chuckled.

"let me go hyung." I pleaded, we were both crying my hand on his shoulder, I'm smiling at him while he was just staring at me.

"I'm sorry sunghoon, I'm really sorry I'm sorry for everything, I'm sorry if I can't do anything anymore, If I can't chase you. If I can't stop you. Maybe you were right. I fell out of love." he said, I heard my heart getting shattered.

Hearing it from him hurts. But I wanted this. I want those words coming out from him.

"I'm sorry if I'm not your haru anymore."

"I promised that I will take care of you, and I will always do that."

"I'm letting you go now hoon, again I'm sorry for everything." He said, I nodded then smiled.

I stood up and walked away with a heavy heart. It hurts. I love him so much, I didn't know that we will experience this.

I didn't know that we will get separated.

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I'm sorry if it's dramatic, probably because of the music I'm listening to and because I want this to end already T^T

I'm sorry it's short! I'll continue this tomorrow maybe I'd end this tomorrow T^T

but at the same time I don't want to hehe

STEAM FUTURE PERFECT Y'ALL!

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Don't push your love ones away from you, learn to open up and understand them.

Because they did the same to you