a solo seminar of life

たわごと

sometimes i want to cut myself just to see what it would feel like. but that's besides the point. i just needed to get that off my chest.

if we all go about our lives not caring about others or ourselves (as we so clearly do now) what will happen when climate change takes over? when some virus superior to covid finally crumbles the weakening control the government has over the public? when apple invents a phone either so big it doesn't fit in a pocket, or so small it resembles an ipod? (that was a weak attempt at a joke, bear with me) 

have you ever looked at yourself and thought "god i wish i was someone else"? i have. i'm sure everyone has. even the people you want to be want to be someone else, and those people the people you want to be want to be someone else, and so it goes on in a loop. someone wants to be you. or at least the superficial version of you. once they realise you're a cringey, angst-filled teenager with bad breath and a lack of motivation, they back off. they pick someone else. it's nothing personal, they just don't need another version of themselves, (bad breath, angst, lack of motivation) with a different face. no one chooses to have their face. (apart from people with plastic surgery, but i'm not talking about them.)

toffee apples are mid.