For long , i thought i was different. i wasn't like the rest of my mates, i think different, and i respond in a different way. People complained about how i treated them and i felt guilty about it, and for long i blamed myself.
Hello, am faridat and i am an introvert. You may ask who is an introvert and what does it mean?, ...well here is your answer;
"An introvert is a person with qualities of a personality type known as introversion, which means that they feel more comfortable focusing on their inner thoughts and ideas, rather than what's happening externally. They enjoy spending time with just one or two people, rather than large groups or crowds".
Many might say it's a sickness but actually it's just a personality that affects your sense of thinking towards so many , it's affect the brain but not in a bad way and it's also kinda out of your control.
When people get excited about something , i don't get as much excitement about it. When people want to socialize to some extent, i like to be reserve about it. What people take for granted like personal space, is actually my escape.
people think being an introvert is a decision, that i decide to ignore people, that i don't do well in crowd, that i take family and friends for granted, that it's was a choice i made , they think you take pleasure in doing all that.
I have hard time calling people even if I have airtime in my phone, I hardly respond to text even if I wanted to, I don't go out even when am not locked up in the house, I don't like when people call me on phone often, I just want my personal space only.
I create a group of people that are dear to me and only concentrate on them, the rest sounds like disturbance to me even when I feel guilty about it. People might never understand what it is to be an introvert but believe me the impulses are never intentional, you will be in crowd and still feel like you are alone, you might feel like socializing but get bored when you start. You might want to try but never pick the courage to.
I realize I was an introvert when I started my research on my personality, I thought I was mentally sick but then am an intelligent lady, no way near a mental illness, I consulted with some psychologist online and I went through a MBTI which is a personality test and I realize I had introversion. At first I thought it's was not nothing, just another social joke, made a mockery of it.
Little did I know I was just letting it get worse and worse and my close friends and relatives are getting tired of my "attitude and behavior "...I knew I needed to know more about my introversion and how to overcome it.
Thank you for taking your time to read about my story....please follow me in my next episodes to see my journey and how I overcame it🍁🍁🍁🍁
