TW: Mentions of Suicide
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They're an eccedentesiast
Someone who hides their pain with a pretty smile
Sometimes it's so pretty, no one notices what they're going through.
They get pushed around and bullied.
Nobody knows they cry in their sleep.
He is a philocalist.
He is one to find beauty in everything.
It's the middle of October.
He sits on the very left in the back.
They sit in the middle of the back.
He notices them.
He is amazed by them.
He knows they're special.
Anxiety.
That’s what they feel constantly.
He has dystychiphobia.
He hates the thought of hurting someone.
He hates the guilt that floods in whenever he feels he’s hurt someone.
Kadota.
That’s what they want to do.
They want to disappear and get lost in the forest.
Psithurism.
The sound of wind through the trees.
They love that sound.
So calm.
End of class.
Both are the last ones.
He approaches them.
He wants to get to know them.
They don’t trust him.
He is persistent.
They agree.
It’s the end of March.
They seem happier than ever with him.
If only that was true happiness.
A text.
1:38 A.M.
“I love you. Thanks for everything.”
They’re gone.
Tears.
The blood of the soul.
He wishes he could have done better.
