The Secluding of Eve

Ch. 17-Returns

I apologize again for the crooked indentions. I really can’t tell a straight line from an S apparently. Lol!

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              “Am I doing something wrong,” I ask. Harvey puts his cards on the table and rubs his face.

              “No you’re beating me. It’s not fair,” Harvey says. This has to be our eighth game of cards and I’m not even sure what the game is called. It was fun in the beginning, but now it’s just something to past the time.

               “I wanted to play go fish,” I state. That’s a game I could’ve destroyed Harvey in. Harvey yawns and I realize that I’m getting sleepy. What time is it anyway?

                I look at the clock and it’s already one a.m. We should be sleeping. Harvey looks up at me before looking back at his cards. Things have been awkward between us since we left Jinx’s room. I don’t know what to do about it. I’ve never been in this type of situation before.

                When I look back up, Harvey is biting his cheek and by the way he’s rubbing his palms with his thumbs Harvey’s hands are sweating. I should just say something before one of us has a heart attack.

                “Did I,” Harvey and I say at the same time. Did I what? We stare into each other’s eyes for a while and I can’t help but think of how unique Harvey’s eyes are. They are a beautiful shade of green.

              “What were you going to say,” Harvey asks quickly. No I don’t want to speak first.

              “You can go first,” I argue while taking my eyes off of Harvey’s. I can’t lose my cover. I have to stay in spy mode. There’s just something about Harvey that makes me feel…different. I don’t know if I like the feeling either. It just seems to take over me at the worst times.  

              “Well…Did I do something wrong? Things have never been this uncomfortable between us and I hate thinking that this is all my fault,” Harvey says.

               As much as I don’t want to believe that, this is all his fault in the end. If Harvey didn’t try to kiss me we wouldn’t be having this conversation now. I still can’t put all the blame on Harvey though. Some small part of me wanted to kiss him. Some irresponsible part of me that was caught in the moment wanted to like Harvey more than friends.

              “No I’m just…confused,” I answer honestly. I might as well be as honest as I can before I have to lie to protect my identity.

               “About what? About us?” Harvey asks.

                 I nod before asking, “Is there an ‘us’?” If I become Harvey’s girlfriend, that would be a window of so much more information.

                On the other hand I would have to do girlfriend things. Maybe not all girlfriends are this way but the average girlfriend would be the type of girls Alexi would hook up with. I’m not sure I want to be that type of girl, but I’ll do whatever I have to for a mission.

              “There can be an ‘us.’ I just don’t want things to be awkward between us Ember. I like hanging out with you. You’re my pet after all,” he says. I find myself smiling for some strange reason. Of course I’m still looking down and I try to stop smiling. Harvey’s words make me feel really strange. Happy? I didn’t know humans could feel that way by words. Maybe something’s wrong with me.