Suggested song for this letter:
WHEREVER YOU ARE BY 5SOS
ERIN HAAAAIIIII
so uh... uh... uhm... I honestly dont know what to say anymore bc I already told you like everything... I guess "I love you" would do...
okay I guess not... (bc Jacky would kill me if my message would be this short lmao *winks* *winks*) sooo...
(Would you mind if it's gonna be super long?? Lol I don't need to ask bc I'm gonna do it either way)...
first of all... I just wanna tell you how happy I am to know that you have such amazing friends I s2g... jfc...
Remember when we first met here on Wattpad?? (Wtf okay we have talked about this for like 172929382829397 times already wow) when I used to have this bald Mikey as my icon?? (Yeah every time I get to see that picture, ur always the first thing that comes into my mind) we talked about styling and coloring his hair and whatsoever... Yeah that moment wasn't really the climax of everything between us tbh but I'm really glad it happened... I'm just really glad that I met you...
anyways... I honestly can't remember how we became best friends like seriously what the fuck did I do to deserve you??? But all I could remember was that you were the only person that made me look for you in like almost a week and made me panic bc i couldnt find you I almost cried in the computer class tbh... (I've never done that to anyone before tbh) Idk you just have this really deep effect on me... Like when you finally got to message me for the first time after I lost you, I was really happy like it felt like there were 10 beautiful angels smiling at me (idk where that came from lmao)...
Then I started to really like talking to you... Bc you were so humble and understanding... You're all in all nice and amazing... You still are tho...
Then idk we started to trust each other... We shared to each other our secrets and everything that's happening around us... We made promises... We cried for each other... We laughed like idiots bc we are idiots... (Wait no I think I'm the only idiot around here...) You're just so perfect Erin... You know how to get along with any people... And I s2g you impress me like a lot...
Erin you were like an angel that was sent by the heavens to save the people... You have saved way too many people you have no idea... You have saved me Erin and you always save me... You always make me feel like I belong here... That I deserve to be loved... That I have a brighter future... You just really know how to calm me down and make me feel better... You never gave up on me... Never... But I almost did... Was it the second time or the 3rd time?? And it made me hate myself so bad... Its just that I've always been thinking that I'm not good enough for you... That you don't deserve to have a psychotic and horrible and war freak best friend like me... But you always believed in me... You are always hopeful that we're gonna be alright... That everything's gonna be okay... I was never the strong one Erin... You are... Everything about you makes you special... You are beautiful inside and out and please do not let anyone's words get to you... You are special to me... To a lot of people... And I love you way too much I can't even explain it... If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be here anymore...
You taught me the things I never thought I could ever learn... You have given me the love and care that I thought I could never have... You just lightened up my whole life Erin... I don't even know what I would be without you... I'll be forever greatful to you for saving me and showing me things I never thought existed... Thank you for everything that you have done for me... My thanks for you will never be enough to show you how much more I am thankful for having such a wonderful friend like you and for everything that you have shared with me...
You were always right here for me whenever I needed you... You were always there when I thought I was alone... You gave me strength when I was so weak to the point that I wanted to give up... I just really wish I could repay everything you have done for me... I just want what's best for you Erin... All I ever want is for you to be happy... I just want to give you the whole world but lol ofc I suck way too much so I can't... You deserve all the happiness in this world... You deserve to be loved... You are loved Erin... I mean look at the people in this book... Like woah seriously you have plenty of friends there... We all care about you... We love you so goddamn much Erin...
And I'm here for you as much as you're here for me... Maybe I may not be good enough for you but I will always try my best... I'm really sorry for everything that I have done to you... You never deserve any of the pain and burden that I have given to you... I just really hope I could do something to make it all up to you... I love you... Xx
HAPPY BDAY CUTIE BOO!!!!! LOL CUTIE BOO BOO... AW AW AW ❤❤❤
I hope you have a splendid 18th bday... Hey yay you're 18 now... And I'm so proud of you BABES HA! Always take care of yourself kay?? Kay... I WUB YOU xoxo
PS: i already told you like literally everything before so idk maybe repeating it all again won't harm you... Sorry not sorry oops... XD
~Christine xx
