under your spell

Chapter 2

I swear I was just going to rest my eyes for a bit, but when I open them it’s already dark outside.

Sitting up, I run a hand through my hair while searching for my phone. I find it under my pillow and the screen show me that it is now 9.18 pm.

I know I won’t be able to fall asleep for some time, so I decide to leave my room for a bit and check if Mary is still up.

When I stand up my vision is suddenly covered by black spots and I quickly sit down again. I then remember that I haven’t eaten since this morning. Mary usually makes sure that I take breaks to eat during the day when working at the café, but on my days off I tend to forget. When you don’t have an appetite, you typically won’t be that motivated to buy food or cook.

Once my vision clears, I stand up again, this time slowly.

Unlocking my door, I feel the sudden need to pee. I lead my feet past the living room and the kitchen on my way to the bathroom when I spot Mary by the fridge, making a sandwich.

“Hey sleeping beauty.” Mary teases and I give her an embarrassed smile.

“Hey, sorry about that, I must have been more tired than I realized.” I say as I scratch the back of my head, a bit guilty that I have barely exchanged a word with her during the day.

“It’s okay Miles, if you need tomorrow off too then that’s totally fine.” She tells me, her voice gentle as she looks at me with concern. She knows I haven’t been able to sleep well lately and the dark circles under my eyes only makes it more obvious.

“No, it’s fine, I just really needed a nap. I’ll be up in time to open the café tomorrow morning.” Leaving her to work alone just doesn’t feel right. Mary seldom takes days of as she loves her work, but I knkw that working alone is tough so if I can help her, then I will.

“Thank you.” Mary gives me a grateful smile before turning back to her sandwich.

I take that as my cue to continue on my way to the toilet. Once there I do my business before washing my hands and brushing my teeth. Once done I remember that maybe I should have eaten something before doing that. Oh well, I’ll just have to remember to eat breakfast tomorrow.

Walking back to my room I glance at my backpack on the floor. I sigh in frustration and wish for the hundredth time that I could just be a human. But knowing that me wishing for it won't make it happen, I opt to grab the bag of pills from within the backpack. I take one, immediately placing it in my mouth and swallowing it. Putting the rest underneath some pants in my dresser, I then lay back down on my bed.

Turning on my side I pick up the book lying on my nightstand. I have almost finished it which means that I will have to make a trip to the library soon. Maybe I’ll do it tomorrow after closing the café, I think as I turn the book open on the page where I last finished.

Reading always makes time go by faster and when I'm done with the last page, 2 hours have already gone by.

I rub my eyes and put the book back on the nightstand before slowly standing up in order undress.

Folding my clothes, I put them on a chair placed beside the dresser. I then grab my phone to set an alarm for tomorrow morning before putting it on charge

When everything is done, I crawl back into bed and close my eyes, trying to sleep.

It only takes a second before dark thoughts infiltrate my mind, telling me how worthless I am and that everyone would be better off without me. If I were to die now, my parent would at least still love me. If they got to know the truth about me being an omega, I’m afraid they would never again want to see me.