HI! THIS IS A DIFFERENT ENDING?
UH I DON'T REALLY WRITE ANYMORE! (ps: I'm dyslexic sorry for miss spells. I also haven't slept in 4 days.)
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I find fundy, in the conor of his room repeating words like a broken record.
I don't say anything, I don't move because I'm in shock, he's in shock just staring at me with tears in his eyes, Fundy is trying to breathe through all his Sobs.
"i—...i-im s....sorry, don't get mad please."
Fundy says to me while shutting his eyes, each word getting covered in sobs.
I don't think, I just go up to him and try and stop him from crying, it doesn't work.
I end up grabbing my phone from my back pocket and calling a hospital,
I'm scared I don't know what to do.
I'm lost for words that's what I am.
By the end of the call I just stand there phone in my hand and up to my ear, I don't move. Not an inch I want to but I don't know what to do I feel like yelling, it'll only make things worse for the both of us.
I wanna understand why he's doing this to himself, but I don't. Why just why would he do this?! Is it because of me??? No it couldn't be please don't let this be because of me.
A few minutes pass.
The ambulance finally arrived, they talk to me about how old found him and of there was any signs, I don't know. And I don't care. WHY ALL THESE QUESTIONS WHY NOT WAIT UNTIL I GET NOTIFIED THAT HE'LL BE OKAY?.. I just stand there looking at the floor, I don't wanna talk about it. Nor do I wanna talk to some random people about it. I want 'him' just him.
I get called my one of the doctors, he'll be fine.
Fine.
Fine.
Fine.
Fine.
JUST FINE? how will he recover, how long, does he need anything? I need to know everything.
I wish that was me instead of him. It should have been me there.
Not him he's nice, pollite, soft, funny and thoughtful.
Why do all the good people go through bad things. Life isn't fair it's shitty.
I'll be sure it's me in that hospital room not him. Not a good person like him.
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Cliff hanger? I think? I don't know I really don't care I'm not in the dsmp fandom anymore I'm just bored
