Just feelings

Thoughts

My mind plays back everything in a constant loop , The thoughts play over and over again like a broken Record playing an old scratches out of tune Record over and over again

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I feel bad for what I've done , The fake smiles the fake laughs but worst of all faking being ok , but am I really to blame? When the people I trusted seem to love toying with my true feelings , yes these people are new but I'm waiting and counting the days until they let me down till they prove to me that I'm only as strong as my weakest emotion , so many people have told me that they care for me in so many ways but every single time it seems like one thing has to go wrong , at one point it can't be them

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Sometimes as my mind floats in the endless Ocean of thoughts , I wonder if they notice notice as I drown myself more in the pain , if they notice how I try to quiet the endless thoughts and urges, but slowly start to lose myself as I seem so tempted almost pulled by the entrancing siren of the end The place that once you enter you may never return only people that have a taste of the end can tell you whether or not it was truly worth it , Will they notice that I choose to ignore the dangers of going to far , or will they only notice until I finally join the end

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