Have you ever experienced numbness? Feeling like your life doesn't have a real purpose. I haven't until today. My whole highschool I dreamed of being at the top of the class. I thought this would bring me some kind of satisfaction. That this would be THE thing that defined me and my future. If I think about it now I somehow thought that when I achieved my goal, all my past problems, which I have been successfully pushing aside for the past year, would simply disappear. Unfortunatelly, this wasn't the case. I sit here today wondering were did all went wrong. My friendships, my relationship and me. Where on the way have I managed to loose myself?
This summer is the longest summer in my entire life. For three months straight I could be partying and living carefree. It is what all my friends want to do, especially my best friend - Laura. So how do you tell your best friend, who was by your side every step of the way, that you don't want that. That you don't know who you are or what you want? How do you tell the person who loves you with their whole heart, and would probably sacrifice themselves for your happiness, that you are afraid to consume drugs, because you don't trust your self that you will make it out alive?
Turns out that reaching your goal doesn't fix anything. It can make things worse. I should be grateful for my perfect life my parents gave me, but somehow I feel more miserable than ever. When I thing about this summer, the hardest part won't be surviing all the hangovers from the night before, but surviving it at all.
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