The deceptive perfect life

Chapter 2 - 15. 6

Today is the day everyone has been waiting for. It's the beginning of the biggest festival in our hometown. Me and my friends go every single year and this year is supposed to be the 5th year in a row. I was excited like everybody else until I figured out that Laura is out of town. At first I though that it was no big deal, because I had other schoolmates. So I asked them if I could go with them, thinking they probably wouldn't mind it. Or so I thought. The reality was that in last three months we drifted apart. They were living seperate lives from mine and didn't want me with them. I souldn't have been surprised, after all I have been studying for the last month like crazy, but somehow I thought that people, who are your true friends, stay there no matter what. But as it turnes out they don't. They blame you for not partying with them, they blame you for haning out with diffterent people and in the end is you fault. Your fault only. If I'm honest I really trully cared only about Evelyn. She was the one who had similar interests. In fact she was the only one to whom I could talk about books, movies and series. I helped her choose her collage and always supported her in her singing career. And I would be lying if I said I don't miss her. Because I do. I miss her like crazy. But she doesn't miss me. She found new friends, better friends and doesn't seem to care what is going on with me. But so be it. I guess some people aren't meant to be in your life forever. I like to think I helped her as much as I could, but now is time to let her go. It's weird isn't it, how a friendship break up is sometimes harder than relationship one?

This evening I will be partying with my "sister" - friend Nicole and her friends. I've known Nicole since we were born. But she is a topic for another day. All I can say for now is that no metter how many friends I loose, how many friendship breakups I have to go through, I hope none of it will regard her.