well i have decided to write this as an online diary, if my "friends" find this they wont be happy. This is where i am going to let all my thoughts and feelings out like a normal diary but it isn't because its on the Internet, the thing is i cant talk to my friends, i go to talk to them about everything but they wont physically come out of my mouth. Its like my body wont actually let them out, the only person that knows everything is my old best friend, she was my rock the person i could talk to but then she got a boyfriend and new friends and we just kind of drifted apart and now we don't really talk (i am not putting names in this just in case someone i know finds this)
