Love TO Lose

The Start

Right now am in a hospital theatre surrounded by doctors , I guess they are trying to save my life. You may wonder how did I get this far , let's begin from the start . As a child I was always shy, timid, and alone, I thought I was ugly and no one could ever love me , even though my parents did their very best to show me their love I was still adamant I believed only I could love myself, I kept no friends at all and watched as the world passed away everyday from a corner and to top it up I came from a strict Christian family so I had no make up , jewellery, trousers and boyfriend , I was always covered ; while others did those things I would sit by the side listening to their chattering , well I wasn't really bother I was used to it already at least I thought so ; with every passing day I would look at the mirror and tell the ugly girl I saw just keep fighting it'll soon be over by it I mean school cause it was a literary hell on earth , I was bullied by my mates and girls who are pretty made fun of me , it got to the point where they wrote something terrible about me on the board with a parmanent marker and highlited it everyday it lasted almost till the end of the term ; no one should be used to this but I was and I was willing to endure till I was done with school after all half my school fee was a paid on scholarship and that I worked really hard to get . Everything was going fine until I met him the one I hate the most ,he was a senior and I was a class below, I had never seen him before in school it seemed he transferred , I remember when he came to school for the first time all the girls where going bizaz on how handsome and cute he was and I heard one of the girls say he looked like a "Greek god" , so I had to see for myself , the moment I saw him I hated him you may say it's hate at first sight because he was overhyped , OMG , I was so angry how could girls act so cheaply because of one boy , what makes him different , they're so stupid I sighed and walked away. Later that day I heard some girls talking about him it seemed he was quite rich "ok "am kidding according to them crazy rich Asian rich , his parents owned the biggest company in the country,' kinda nice I thought but I brushed that thought off . The day we actually met it was an afternoon like no other I was really pressed and the teacher was no where to be found , I didn't have a hall pass ,and I couldn't hold it any longer, so I decided to sneak to the girls toilet after all it wasn't that far from the class , I wasn't looking forward cause I was busy checking if anyone was behind me when I bumped into him , our eyes met at a stance , but I was to pressed to notice his eyes and he was blabbering about something I didn't care to listen to, I just needed to get to the toilet so I tossed him aside and ran to the toilet , I finally got to the restroom and all I could think of was " that fool who does he think he is stopping me like that , cause his one class above me he thinks am like those silly girl who would fall into his stupid whimps , well he deserved what he got I was really proud of myself. I was done so I went straight to the classroom , when I got there it seemed the teacher was back and the principal wanted to see me , I was full of thought as I walked to the princpal's , when I got there I was a bit scared but I gathered courage and knocked on the principal's door , come in the principal said , you wouldn't believe it! I saw him there I was so angry "so he reported me to the principal" , the principal said he was incharge of making sure that there was no loitering in the hall way during classes and some other things which I didn't pay attention to , well I was in thought "( when? How? I know it's just an excuse the principal found for him not to attend classes after all he was rich , how can someone who just transferred be the hallway prefect? , and his life was set so he didn't really need education , how could he understand its importance) , then I began listening to the principal it was posted on the school's group chat, she did this to mock me cause she knew I had no phone my parents wouldn't allow it , they believed it was a distraction and ungodly , according to my parents I wasn't mature enough, so I fluttered mam...you know ... before I could finish she said detention! now!, and the worst part was the smile and look of satisfaction on his face ,I hated him even more never ever have I been sent to detention , and it was going on my records , above that I had a lot of explaining to do at home , how could one person bring so much trouble to me all at once, little did I know that it was just the beginning and I was going to have worst days because of him.