One Shots/ short storys

flower one shot, that made me write nonsensical fanfiction for 2 long

uh- this has alot of inconsistences and not set at an actual episode characters who never got elimated bc of the switch will be here and possibly elimateed references will be everywhere and all crazy, but like- its whatever im in to much pain rn to care- so lskdjflk, this probably isnt a good beginning 

but its whatever just dont worry about it, this might have a couple of references to mee in it as with every book i do u- u,

warnings- Eating disorders, bad self esteem, normal angst stuff- just like be warned idk what im doing my other books are way better

Here she was again, staying up late to finish her "projects"

They weren't always for her.. sometimes people asked for them, sometimes she was forced to make things-, sometimes she used her craft to calm down, but that tactic no longer worked when doing it to much- this had been going on for months-

She wasnt getting enough sleep that was a given, to her surprise no one noticed her underperforming in the contests, she was grateful though- as her team never really let her do anything so she was just allowed to keep working-

And if they did need her they knew where she was- sometimes she would get distracted from her work when looking at her orders she would see peoples complaints and nitpicks about her style, and how she made things, and sometimes just straight up called her, and her designs ugly with some colorful words strung inbetween-

She knew that not everyone liked the same things, so she tries to not take it to heart- but that becomes extremely difficult after time, she kept thinking of new styles and designs she could make- some she didn't like but when made others loved-

She strived for compliments, she hated half the things she made- they weren't something she loved, mostly dark colors, no sparkles, no pink, no frills, no puffs, no personality, atleast to her-, everyone else started liking her stuff more, which led to her spiraling into her work-

Skipping things like: sleep, food, water, sun, challenges, hangouts, shopping trips, watching shows.

Sometimes her team would force her to do challenges with them- or just tell her to take a walk as the sewing machine was to loud, instead of taking a break at night, to sleep- or to do anything actually productive, she would just sew by hand-

She would start to faint, and pass out more frequently, though she had almost gotten used to not eating or drinking much- the pain went away and only got really bad some days, so she considered that good enough. Right now however she was experiencing a lot of pain but instead of waiting for it to stop she still worked through it, this would lead to mistakes she would have to fix by hand later-

Little sounds of frustration could be heard- though it was starting to get late- she didn't miss anything today as it was an off day- she stopped pressing the pedal for the machine pushing her chair back and bending forward arms wrapped around her stomach-

She squeezed herself as hard as she could to make herself stop the pain- just then a knock was heard on her door-

She couldn't say anything led alone answer it, she couldn't move, the object opened the door despite no resopons "flower?" ruby said looking over at her desk, "flower are you ok??" the pain subsided though not for long "yeah i'm fine ruby" she said sitting back up and sitting closer to her desk to start working again-

"Uhm flower you should take a break- cus like you've been working this whole break- and you missed dinner- that whole time.... And! we have challenges tomorrow- and i think pencil wants you to help this time- i don't know- i just overheard things... but even then you should sleep i heard your sewing all night last night!!"