Till I met you (beau brooks - janoskians fanfic)

Chapter 1

Charlotte's POV

*Flash back*

"We have to go now, quickly" he said in a very hush tone, so they couldn't here him. If they knew where we were hiding, they will kill us.

"Jack I can't do this, it's too dangerous" I said, loud enough so he could hear me.

"After three, we run. OK." Jack said, his heart was racing so fast, as was mine. The adrenalin rush has kicked in. It had too otherwise we were going to die.

We both looked around us and couldn't see anything. He took me by the hand and then slowly said "3..2..1....".

*end of flashback*

The blade so nice against my skin, it never hurt me. What hurt me more was being reminded of what happened that night, I wish I could just get over it, and never have to worry about it ever again. But that will never happen. Not if I have to be around all the scars that it left me.

I missed my best friend so much, but I knew that anything that I did or tried to do, will never help to bring him back to me.

Hurting myself seems to be the only way that I can release the pain. Nobody knows about what I do and only my parents know what happened.

That night I felt so afraid, just like I do everyday.

That night I fell asleep thinking about all the good times I had with jack. I hate to admit it but I fell in love with him, and I never got to tell him.

(The next day)

I woke up feeling like something bad was going to happen, I don't know what it was, but I suddenly had the urge to throw up and I'm not sure why.

My mum told me that I need to get help because of what happened, and that I should go and see someone about it.

I walked down the stairs to be greeted by very sad faces. That's when I remembered, it was the day of jacks funeral. How could I forget. How can it just slip my mind. Now I realise why had such a bad feeling about today.

My mum broke the silence "hey Hun, how you feeling", I didn't know what to say so I just shrugged. I walked up to my mum and dad and they gave me the most supportive hug and said "I love you so much" after that I just burst out crying.

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Note: this is my first ever time writing, so I am sorry if you don't like it.

I promise this should get better.

-Charlotte <3