july 15 2022
I was originally gonna copy down the entries I have written in the past few months, but that's too much and it doesn't really make sense. It's very scattered. I guess I will have to summarize it. Today it is the middle of July, the summer of 2022.
Nothing relevant has happened.
My mom left for Mexico this morning at 3:00 am. I finished reading Speak yesterday. My friend had to cancel plans for this weekend cause she got Covid. Fucking bitch, couldn't she have gotten it another time??
My mom isn't coming back from Mexico until July 30 so I have to cook and clean. My older sister helps to but she's kinda useless so 😔💪.
My birthday is really soon, on July 27th 😋. I always have really high expectations for birthday and they never meet them, so this year my expectations are really low.
Last year I had the worst birthday of my life I wanted to cry so bad but I held it in. I'm just built like that yk.
This year the lady that ruined by birthday last year won't be able to ruin it cause she's dead. Well, technically we don't know if she's dead but she disappeared exactly a month after my birthday and they never found her. I remember on August 27 2021 when my mom got a call that she was missing. I got scared that I had manifested her disappearance because it was really a coincidence that she disappeared exactly a month after she ruined my birthday. Idk.
Anyways, he is a summary of the past few months of my life. Basically in September of 2021 I started 8th grader. I was friends with really ugly people and looking back at it, i would love to give early 8th grade me a makeover. Overall I just wasn't cool at all in first semester, like, I had a pretty face but I dressed ugly. So fucking ugly. I was trying to be one of those cottage-core white bitches and I looked like shit while doing it.
Anyways, when the second semester started I bought a pair of flared jeans and my outfits improved but my hair got ugly. Also, I strayed hating this one girl that was in my friends group to fucking much. I wrote her letter and drew her and copied every thing she did. I'm still obsessed with her.
Yesterday she texted me that she missed me😘. And I was like "I miss you more" LMAFWOSJBES. If she knew that shit I write ab her. She's really fucking pretty though. I'm so jealous like I wanna punch her typa jealous.
Also, I started liking this one boy in January and in May she started dating him. She's such a fucking whore. Like, that was like a month after she broke up with her ex. Her ex was cute asf ngl.
To be fair she didn't know I liked him. No one knew except my 7th grade bestie boo. Love that girl😘. But yeah, and also, the reason I began liking him was because I realized that the whore was friends with him, so I was like " let's see who can pull him first" HAHAHA I LAUGH WHEN I THINK ANOUT IT. She didn't know it was a competition and she still beat me🥲 LOVE HERRRR🥰🥰
Let's call her Sanaya because I can't expose her real name. And the boy I liked it nicknamed Percy because once I heard him say sum about Percy Jackson and so I associate him with Percy Jackson. OMG HES SO CUTE THOOOO.
Like, he's friends with all the popular boys and he's like kinda popular but he's quieter and he reads and he's smart UGHHH OMG MY PERCY😇
Anyways though so yeah she's dating him right now. On the last day of 8th grade me and some "friends" went to hang out and he came and Sanaya and him were like so awkward LMAOOO. And he was like on him phone and she was like "draw with us...draw with me..." cause we were like coloring fans and he WAS LIKE BLOWING HER OFF😭😭
SHE DESERVES BETTER BUT LIKE, I STILL WNAT HIM😋
ALSOOOO back to the ring about how I had to cancel plans with my friend. So basically I have this one friend that I've been friends with since 1st grade, lets call her Nayeli. So me Nayeli and 2 other people had plans to have a picnic on Sunday, so 2 days form today but Nayeli got Covid so we can't do it. But I wanted to do it this weekend because I'm also gonna have a picnic with my friends from my middle school and I fucking hate all of them. Oh because Nayeli and my other 2 friends don't go to my middle school. BUT OMFG!!!! Like I just wanna do the picnic with the friends I actually like first and then with the other people cause idk it just fees more superior.
10:52 pm
Jesus fucking Christ. He just texted me. His name is Antony and he's such a fucking bitch. He was my only Latino friend this year so I obviously wanted to keep being his friend even though he treated me like shit. He had a crush on Sanaya. He didn't tell me I just knew. I thought it was cute. It wasn't cute when the 2 of them would do stuff without me, exclude me, treat me like shit, but I just kept being friends with them. It's now summer and he only texts me when I send him funny locket pictures. That's why I send him so many. The only other time he will texts me is if he wants to rant about Sanaya and her relationship whit Percy. As you might guess he hates Percy.
It's funny. When were together, the four of us, it looks like Sanaya and Percy and couple and me and Anthony are a couple. But we aren't. I know better than that.
What's funnier is that he hates Percy and likes Sanaya and I hate Sanaya and like Percy. Ille tell you later more about Anthony.
The reason he texted me was to ask me if I had seen Sanaya insta story. I just went to see it and it was pictures from her date with Percy. THEYRE SO FUCKING CUTE I WANNARIPHERFUCKINGEYEBALLSOUTANDMAKEHERGORHROIGHEVERYTHINGSHEMADEMEFUCKINGGOTHROUGJ I WANNA MAKE HER CRY SO MUCH TO THE POINT WHERE SHES EMBARRASSED TO GET OHT OF HER ROOM BECAUSE OF HOW PUFFY HER EYES ARE. I WANT PERCY TO LEAVE HER FOR A PRETTY GIRL AND I WANT HER TO WATCH HOW MUCH HE ENJOYS HIMSELF WITH HER IFHW SVHSNANANSNS I FUCKING HATW TOU SANAYA.
So yeah. I responded like 7 minutes late because he always leaves me on delivered for forever and said "yeah". Take that you fucking bitch. Go cry about how much you wish u were Percy rn. Bitch.
OMG THIS IS ACTUALLY. HE IS SUCH A WHORE AND I FUXKING HATW HIM HE LEFT ME ON SEEN. YEAH. HE OPENED THE CHAT AS SOON AS I SENT IT AND LEFT ME ON SEEN.
I sent him a question mark. I love toying with idiots like him. Fucking stupid.
I'm gonna throw up. They did poppin cookies on their date. The reason I started liking him was cause he gave her poppin cookins and I thought it was cute.
I wish she was dead. She can do everything sm better what the actual fuck. WHY AND LIKE SHE JS SO FUCKING LRETTY LIKE SHE WQS WEARING THESE SHORTS BMCAUSE SHE HAS NICE LEGS AND LIKE I WANNA LAUGH AT MYSWLF BUT IM CEYING THE TEARS JUST KEEP COMING I WANNA SLAP HER AND PUNCH HER I CANT.
I'm so much better that her though. She's a whore. Watch her break up with him next month. Fucking slut.
Awwe he clearly saw that I sent him the question mark cause he is active on Instagram. He's such a pussy. He can't face the fact that he's never gonna pull her. UGHSBNSBAVWVSAV.
