ikaw lang

While waiting for her turn to order, Fleur couldn't help but to glance at her phone from time to time. She taps her shoes on the floor out of boredom, her untied shoelaces flying off from here to there.

She looked up and blew air, making her bangs messy because she forgot to put hairspray on it.

Napangiti siya nang siya na ang susunod na oorder. "Two cheeseburgers please," aniya. The cashier told her that her order will be ready in some time so Fleur nodded. Nilibot niya ang paningin upang humanap ng pwede niyang maupuan habang hinihintay ang order niya.

Finally, she saw a two-seater set of table and chairs that was vacant.

A few minutes later, her order arrived. Two cheeseburgers, on two separate plates. Natigilan si Fleur habang nanatili siyang nakatingin sa dalawang cheeseburger na nasa lamesa niya.

And like a big yellow bus, it hits her.

Mag-isa na lang pala siya.

Why was she glancing at her phone from time to time as if someone's going to call? Because once upon a time, there was.

Why would a grown-up woman like her forgets to tie her shoelaces? Because there was once a someone who does it for her.

Why would she forget to put hairspray on when she knew her bangs would be messy if she doesn't? Because once, she never needed it because someone fixes her bangs when it gets windy.

Nasanay siyang merong isang taong lubos na inaalagaan siya, kaya 'nang umalis ang taong 'yon at iwan siya, nahirapan siyang gawin ang mga bagay na sobrang daling gawin.

Pero kinakaya niya naman. Kakayanin niya hanggang hindi na siya maghihintay ng tawag, hanggang hindi niya na malimutang ayusin ang sintas, hanggang lagi niya nang maalalang ayusin ang buhok.

Hanggang sa masanay siyang mag-isa na lang siya. Isang cheeseburger na lang at sa pang-isahang upuan na lamang siya uupo.

Kasi sa dulo, iwan ka man ng lahat at mawala man lahat ng nakasanayan mo, ikaw lang ang tanging mananatili. Ikaw lang ang dapat mong makasanayan.