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I Hate Playing Violin.

So, I've been playing violin for about 5 years. I liked it at first, it looked fun, but no. It hurts my ears, it's hard, it gives me cramps, and sometimes I just can't focus and my parents say I have to play it or I lose my phone bc violin is the whole reason I had a phone.
But I FUCKING hate it. I will start praying every night to get rid of the violin.
Now ur gonna say, "But u have played for 5 years? Why give up now? Is it really worth it?"
Yes. It is. I've come all this far, but I came this far without wanting to continue. I WAS FORCED TO CONTINUE. And I hate it.
If u don't like doing something, I think it already goes to waste. U gotta feel it. U gotta do things with love. If you don't it's just a forced instinct.
I was stressing about violin, I wanted to go out for a walk because that calms me down, but my parents said no. Then we had a talk with my parents but that shit didn't help at all.
I hate this.
I hate violin.
I wanna grab my violin and bang it on a piece of metal til it breaks.
I.
Fucking.
Hate.
Violin.
Idc if I play good. I don't play wanting it.
"U have to play it. It's hard, but life is hard."
First off, how bout u try playing it? Second off, life can be easy if the people make it easy.
Screw money, let's go back to trading.
Screw jobs. Well, nah not screw jobs. But help the poor ppl. Life doesn't have to be hard if we help each other.
"But u play so good!"
Idgaf. I don't like it. If u rlly wanna hear violin, search up some music. Not that hard.

Just wanted to get that off my chest.
Bye.