The Unforgiven!

The Thing That Hurts Most!

Reagan ran to his arms, gave him the biggest hug, smiled, laughed and asked a bunch of questions, pretty much the only one happy to see him. My mom gathered the courage to invite him in. Greeting him with a half hearted smiled, " Well Don't Just Stand There Rover Come In!" I Glanced at him with the deepest hate then back at my mother with sympathy and asking her if she was okay with my eyes. She nodded moving to the kitchen where Reagan and Rover where.

I was beyond pissed at his arrival. We all sat at the table waiting for my father's reason for coming here. he looked nervous. I really didn't care though I was just ready for him to leave. "Riles...." I Gave him a furious stare kind of like a really mean puppy. He quickly Restated,"... I Mean Riley. I-I Just Came Back To Apologize To You And Your Mother For Walking Out On You Two All Those Years Ago. Will You Forgive Me?" Throughout his whole little Apologetic Speech my demeanor had shifted from upset to angry!

I was so lost in my anger that I didn't realize my mother had began to speak. I pulled myself out of my daze right at the moment my mom says," I Forgive You Rover." Smiling and to my surprise she offered him an inviting hug. I Felt so betrayed by my mother for actually giving into that asshole! I Shot Completely Off. " Bullshit!" I jumped from the table emotions flared. I was Hot! My Mother was completely surprised and said," Excuse Me Young Lady! You Will Not Use That In My House!"

My mind was gone everything she said went in one ear and came out the other. At that point I was just as angry with my mother as I was my father! Her Betrayal was beyond hurtful to me. "I Can't Believe You're Forgiving This Asshole! He Leaves Us And Then Appears On Our Door Step After Four Years Asking For Forgiveness, And You Give It To Him Just So He Can Go Out And Find Some Slut One Night While You're Sleeping?" My look was so harsh and filled with hatred towards the both of them, I Wasn't thinking my mind was so many places at once.

With the coldest stare at my mother I said, " I Don't Know About You, But I Don't Appreciate Being Second Base." And as soon as I finished my sentence, I felt a cold hard hand across my face and a deep stinging in my right cheek. My mom had slapped me! I was completely shocked and outraged! I Was about to storm out the door when Rover graves my wrist, I quickly jerked back. Only to see his pleading face still asking for my forgiveness.

I Stared into his eyes hard and said, "You Want My Forgiveness After Leaving Me Alone Without A Father At Eight? You Missed All Of Our Tea Parties, All Of Our SPA Days, My Prom, and My First Father Daughter Dance I'm Fifth-teen For Christ Sakes! I Called For You Every Night After You Left I Cried Every Day! I Thought I Was Your Little Princess.... But You Left Me!" I could feel the hot tears streaming down my cheeks the entire time. I didn't realize how much him leaving hurt me. How Big Of An Affect he Had On Me.

His Eyes Were red and puffy from crying when he replies," Riles You Are My Little Princess And I'll Never Leave You Again... Riley I Love You." He Whispered to keep from bursting into tears. I don't know why, but his words weren't enough. I needed more! I need him to replace the Love that I missed when he left. I needed his protection. I needed him to show me in order for me to believe him.

I Knew that he would have to go through Hell and Back to get my Forgiveness. I sucked up all my tears an stared at him then finally mustered up the guts to say," You Want My Forgiveness....Earn It!" And with that I walked out the door. I Didn't know where I was going and I didn't care. All I Know is that The Forgiven Deserve Ti Be Forgiven And The Unforgiven Just Don't Get That Relief!