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Michiko's alarm beeped, a loud chiming noise.
"Shut up," Yelled Michiko, turning over to reach her phone and stop the noise. As soon as she turned and got her phone, she was on TikTok.
She was obsessed with this app, for some reason, she couldn't stop scrolling. Though it made her feel worse about herself, she just couldn't stop. She wanted to keep looking at all the pretty people she saw. She didn't know why.
As soon as she knew it, it has been two hours. She had been stalking this one page called,
"@ LittlezBuety"
She had thought it was spelled wrong on purpose. She really liked how she looked. She was pretty, her makeup was always on fleek, and she was thin. Michiko wanted to be like her.
Her little "break" was ended as soon and her mom came in.
"Girl. It is what,-" she checked her watch. "It's 12. You have to eat something,"
"I'm not really in the mood. Im not really hungry," She replied.
"You haven't eaten much these past months, are you okay?" Her mother asked, clearly concerned. She had been avoiding food for about seven months now. And if she did eat, it would be small. Like, a single blueberry. And if it was more, she would get up immediately and go to her room and be in there for thirty minutes before coming back out and continue doing what she was doing. Something had to be up.
"Yeah, I-Im fine. No need to worry," She went straight back to her phone, which was a sign to her mother to leave.
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(around 7-8 moths ago)
She was scrolling through TikTok, and kept seeing these pretty girls.
She was upset, and got up starting to look towards the side of her mirror. Looking at her mirror.
She went on Safari, and looked up these words,:
"How To Make Yourself Throw Up"
"I have to cut down all this food," she said, whispering. She ran to the bathroom, doing what the results said. She put two fingers down her throat, and went down her throat farther. When she felt it coming faster, and more stuff coming up, she started going back and forth and she did it. She made herself throw up.
She went back to look in the mirror, and as expected, there was no change. She thought if she had done this more, and avoided food, she would become smaller. Look better.
She then went online, and bought tons of makeup. And skin products. She looked up on YouTube on how to apply it, and make it look good. Her makeup would be coming in three days.
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She sighed, the memories coming back. Every time she had done something like that, it hurt.
But, beauty is pain, right? She kept asking herself that to motivate her to do this. She always tried to stop, but couldn't. She was starving. She had to continuously hold herself back from food that smelled good, or stuff she really wanted to eat.
On her FYP, there was tons of weight loss stuff, and makeup tips.
"I really am desperate, aren't I?" She whispered to herself, making her more upset. She started quietly crying, wondering why she did this to herself. Why she couldn't, and never stopped doing it. Her hands started shaking.
She didn't want to deal with this anymore, but knew she couldn't hold back. She threw her phone, and it landed on a bean bag chair. She ran downstairs, still shaking, but wiping her tears off so her mom didn't notice.
She got some food, and ate a little bit. Already feeling sick.
It's almost like as soon as she got the food, she found her throwing it up just as quick. It was- terrible. But, again, she couldn't stop.
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Better Days (-TW, EATING DISORDER-)
General Fiction_-TW-_ Eating Disorder!! This young girl, around 15, discovers she might have an eating disorder. Her name was Michiko. She grew up in Europe, more in England. She doesn't have too many friends but lives the average teenage lifestyle any other teena...
