𝗔𝗗𝗗𝗜𝗖𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡𝗦 | 𝐎𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬

17

The rain is falling and so are his tears.

His heart is hurting but at least it's mine.

"I WAS FUCKING LOYAL TO YOU! I NEVER DID ANY TYPE OF SNAKE SHIT TO YOU!"
He yells as a couple tears roll down his cheeks.

"WELL WHERE DID BEING LOYAL GET ME!?! MY HEART STILL GOT BROKE REGARDLESS!"
You yell back

"YOUR HEART IS BROKEN??? AND BECAUSE YOU'RE INSECURE AND HAVE ISSUES YOU THINK ITS FUCKING OKAY TO CHEAT!?!?"

"Let's be fucking for real Megumi. You don't love me. You like the idea of loving someone and being loved. You were gone for months." I say slightly projecting my feelings

"I do love you, but that doesn't even matter now.  So that gives you the go to cheat huh?"

"Oh my FUCKING go- YES MAYBE IT FUCKING DOES MEGUMI! YOU WEREN'T LOVING ME! I JUST WANTED SOMEONE TO!"

"WELL HOW DO YOU FUCKING FEEL NOW!?!? TO KNOW THAT HE WAS JUST LOOKING FOR A QUICK FUCK. HUH?! HOW DOES IT FEEL L/N!?!?"

"FEELS LIKE SHIT. THE SAME FUCKING FEELING I GET WHEN IM WITH YOU!!" once those words left my mouth i realized what was actually happening, the anger in me still not dying down, but it cleared a bit letting me acknowledge my words.

"I gave you a place to stay, food, a home. A piece of my heart, and you still cheat with my friend." He says lowly, as his angry quickly turned into what he was really feeling, sadness.

"You left me, for months. I didn't have you to lean on what else was I supposed to do."

"Oh I dunno, Maybe call, text, just put a fucking effort in. You were never like this, what happen to you?"

"Me? What happen to me?!? Megumi do you realize we got together because we were both alone, and needed someone. I was dependent on you! and and when you were gone it was to much so I jus- I just-"

"You just had to go fuck my best friend."
Megumi states while the tears stream down his and my face.

"I- I don't even know. I just wanted to feel someone, something."

"Was I just not enough? You filled my void. Do I not fill yours?" he says sitting on our shared bed while crying.

"Megumi, you do. I love you. I don't love Itadori. I love you." I say pulling him close as he breaks down in front of me.

I do love him, what else would explain the feeling of withdrawal when i'm without him. What else could it be when I only want him to myself? Only to me. Not to anyone else, he's my person. My first love. He belongs with me, right?

"It hurts Y/n, I, I just love you so fucking much. I can't take it Y/n." he whispers into my neck.

"I won't do it again, Megumi." I say crying as well.

"You promise?" he says hiccuping.

"I promise. I'll be better. For myself, For you for us."

"I love you Megumi."

"I, I love you too Y/n."

We both slowly drift to sleep, but all I could think of was what I said 'I love you Megumi.'

I don't love him. I know I don't love him.  He loves me though, and the feeling of being loved is one of my favorite feelings. I know this is wrong, I should leave.

I know this what we call us. Is ruining him. Though I can't help but like this feeling. The need to stay by his side even if it's killing him softly.

At least he dies in my arms though right? 

He's my obsession that helped me through my depression. 

I don't plan on letting him leave my grasp anytime soon either.

Notes-

Should i make this into a book?