In Love With My Mom's New Toyboy

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Okay so song of the week is:

In My Head by Jason Derulo which kinda started this all off

Enjoy<3

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I don't know how it happened, it just...did. And I for one cannot say I regret one single moment of the pure Heaven I had touched, kissed, caressed. He brought me everlasting bliss, but he chose my mom. He chose my thirty-four-year-old mom who was eleven years his senior, who'd bore seven kids- the five youngest having been stillborn and the eldest ODing on crystal meth- and who'd watched her own daughter (me) struggle through life, picking up the broken pieces of her heart and trying her best to glue it back together. Yet some shards still pierced her insides, constantly reminding her of her loss, taunting her with images of her wished-to-be-forgotten past.

How could I ever forget Jared Burnell? He was everywhere now. Covering family albums, his PhD taking pride of place on the mantelpiece where my father's signed baseball had always sat but most of all, he took the role of dad. He wasn't my dad- never could be, never will be. It was just a title. How could he take on the role of my dad when he'd slept with me a few months previous. That's right, because it's impossible.

And I couldn't help but let him keep my heart. I couldn't bear him giving it back to me, or me taking it back. Jared Burnell. Ex-lover, engaged to my mom and... my new "dad."