Authors note:
This chapter contains scenes that could trigger some trauma. If you're not comfortable you can skip this chapter or stop reading my story. You're mental health matters <3
As an author and a person I don't and will never romanticize rape. The following scene is part of the plot and flow of the story.
Reminders again to everyone who is reading this, don't apply what you read in this scene in real life. Respect everyone and don't romanticize forcing anyone. Normalize asking for consent! No means no and rape is rape even if the victim is moaning (it is a normal response).
I love you all !!!!
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She drag me inside the house kahit na nagpupumiglas ako. I'm scared because it feels like she's a different person. I can't help but cry and I beg her a thousand times to stop but she won't listen.
She throw in the bed kaya napadaing ako. Tinali naman niya ang kamay ko sa kama and now she's grinning at me. She ripped all of my clothes, wala siyang tinira kaya naman ay napaiyak nalang ako.
"P-pls I'm so s-sorry, k-kung ano man a-ang nagawa k-ko" she didn't listen and kissed me torridly. Nagpupumiglas ako pero hindi ako makawala at patuloy lang siya sa ginagawa niya. I didn't kiss back and she bit my lips. We already did this before pero ngayon iba ang pakiramdam, I'm scared.
I can taste blood at alam ko dahil yun sa pagkagat niya sa labi ko. Her hands roam to my body and squeeze my breast kaya napadaing ako. I can feel the pain but pleasure when she pinch my nipple. Her lips goes down to my neck and she suck it. It will surely leaves a mark like the last time.
"S-stop this...ahhh" I moan because her other hand touches me down there. Her thumb encircling my clit while she pinch my nipple. I feel dirty because I moan, does that mean I like it?
Her lips go down again to my boobs. She suck it like a baby hungry for some milk and sometimes her tongue encircling in my nipple. That makes me moan and I wanna punch my self because of that.
"Just moan my love" she said but it does not sound sweet but it's something that will makes you shiver. My eyes are getting blurry because of all tears. I don't want it but my body is betraying me which makes me feel dirty.
She rub my clit which made my back arch. She keep on sucking on my boobs and sometimes leave some mark like I'm something she wanna own. Her lips goes down again to my thighs. She kiss and lick it, she's teasing me because she is avoiding my center part purposely.
"Do you want my tongue? Do you want me to taste you?" I wanna scream no but my body wants more. Nandito na naman ang pakiramdam na parang may apoy sa loob mo na nakakapaso. I was crying because of different emotions. I am confused on what should I feel.
"If you don't answer me now, I will just keep teasing you" I groan because of frustration. I want her tongue to be buried into my center but that would make it like I wanted this. I don't know what to do right now because everything I believe in is slowly vanishing and lust is consuming every part of me.
"P-please" I just cried and cried because of what I said. I hated myself because I feel pleasure to what she's doing. I should hate it right? She's goddamn raping me but I'm loving it.
"Please what?" I don't know what happened to my dignity. Everytime she touch me, I lost crontrol. I am not against sex but I definitely did not imagine to lose my virginity this way. It was something special to me and this demon is taking it like it was nothing, like I was worth nothing.
Humagulgol lang ako and suddenly she stop. I am having trouble breathing because I just cry the hell out of my chest. She cupped my face and I can see regret in her eyes. I'm in pain and she's in pain too.
