Lover From The Sky

In those rainy days i felt so lonely without you. Those broken nightmares threatened me not to sleep for numerous nights. I wished you were there to hold me in that cold dark room where my dreams used to build up. Days without you are so unreal and gloomy. You left me and also took away the colours of my eyes. Though i don't blame you. But i wish that if you had trusted me enough and told me everything so that I could keep you in my arms for the rest of our long lost moments. My heart also died the moment your breathing stopped. God never gave me eternal happiness. He gifted me an angel like you to break me all over again. You used to hold me in my darkest times whispering sweet words in my ears. Nowadays you feel like an unreal dream. So close yet so far. I can't touch you anymore. That old dark room became my comfort zone. Because our memories belong to that place. I lock myself behind those wooden doors. I couldn't touch my Canvas anymore. Every single canvas reminds me of you. I remember you telling me to find someone else in your last breath. But you never gave me a chance to reply to you back. You never gave me a chance to give you my last confirmation of your being the only one for me. At least you should have gone knowing that I was and always will be yours.

Every evening i find myself kneeling in front of your grave. I used to howl in agony and cry shamelessly in front of your tombstone. But those tears don't come out anymore. My dull eyes and pale lips are always sitting beside you death bed chanting about how those years have gone without you beside me. I don't mourn anymore. I accepted my fate. I accepted that you came into my life to give me memories,not to make memories with me.

I planted some daisies in the place we used to hang out. I still remember that it was your favourite flower. If a miracle happens and i could see you again admiring those flowers. Those dreams that i want to come true.

I wonder if you watch me from the sky cause i know you still shine like a bright star from somewhere belonging to the endless night sky. Every night i go to the roof gazing up at the stars trying to find the most bright one while remembering our sweet memories. Nothing feels like home anymore because you were my home.

I pray to god to give me my afterlife with you. At least another lifetime to give me a chance to love you for forever. Another lifetime to spend my last breath beside you. I wish, i wish so much.