Mental

3

Zayn's pov.

I kept looking at the pills that laid upon my hand.

Just staring at them with such a passion, so I did the only option I had left;

Which was to overdose.

That was the only option I had left, and I would take it in a heartbeat, just like I'm about to do right now.

Without a doubt I quickly put them all in my mouth and flush them with water.

I laughed, it's amazing how you're here one second then you're just gone, disappeared forever, without anyone noticing that you're truly gone.

I laid my suicide note upon my belly with my hands on top of the note.

I closed my eyes, and waited for death to arrive.

»

I felt this ache in my stomach, feeling like if it was about to burst.

I immediately opened my eyes and threw up.

Doctors were surrounding me, giving me charcoal to drink.

The doctors began cleaning me up, and that's when I saw my mom.

"Honey you're awake!" Said my mom, she was crying.

I smiled, smiled at the fact that I failed at death, of course I was a failure at everything.

"I thought you we're going to;" she stop mid sentence and began sulking even more, while embracing me into a motherly hug.

"Die?" I completed her sentence, she nodded while still embracing me.

I did a nervous chuckle.

"Why?" She asked.

"Why what?" I asked, confused at her question.

"Why? Why, did you do it?" She asked me again.

"I don't want to talk about it right now" and just as if on cue, the doctor came in.

"Mrs.Malik, I need you to sign this paper, saying that you'll approve to let us help him in any way we can" he said, handing my mom the clipboard for her signature.

She quickly signed it, and handed back to the doctor, the doctor got out of the room, leaving only us two alone again.

it was silent and the only thing I could think of was, where was my life heading towards right now?

My life was making a complete 360° turn.

Soon, the doctor came in again and told my mother that I'll be sent into a mental hospital.

She began sobbing, I immediately felt bad for my mom.

The paramedics showed up and transferred me into a rolling bed, I said good bye to my mom and embraced her into a hug, who knows how long I'll be there.

The two paramedics began rolling me towards the ambulance.

I looked up at the sky and realized how much beauty of the world I've been truly missing.

The took me inside the ambulance and the ambulance began moving, moving to a new direction to my life.

«

I was here, I was finally here at the mental hospital, anxiety was growing in me, making me fearful for what was about to come next.

I was inside, alone, in a room with a lady, asking me these personal questions.

"Do you have an eating disorder?" Said the nurse, making me furrow my eyebrows.

"Uh, no" I said, while shaking my foot impatiently on the ground.

"Alright that was the last question I needed to ask you, now come, follow me"

She opened the door that lead to the unit, that I'll be placed in.

Right when she opened it I saw people sitting on the couches, making me gain anxiety.

Some people were reading, some were watching TV.

I followed right beside the woman, "Sit, I'll be back" she said as I sat down on the chair.

"New patient!" screamed the nurse, making me jump out of my chair.

She soon, came back to do my bmi's.

I looked ahead there was a girl staring at me, which made me more anxious than I already was.

I saw someone coming up to me, "Hello, welcome to Laurelwood" she said, while smiling at me.

I shook her hand, smiling back at her.

I wonder how I'll survive here.