listen. i love my mom but sometimes she really disappoints me.
like today she got mad at my sister for saying " dad's in the playroom his leg is really hurting you should leave him alone. " which would make since,
If thats what she said.
She said " dad in the playroom his leg is really hurting you should let him rest a little bit longer. " she wasn't even rude but mom is acting like she was spitting it in her face. and i wish i could have stood up for her but i was too scared of mom to do so.
and mom does this with her ALL THE FUCKING TIME. like one time my sister was really upset, she was sobbing and just clearly not good. and she walked away while she was talking with mom. now, normally, that is a big hint that that person is not up for talking at that moment and to give them a while to calm down before you can safely talk to them. But no. mom called her down with her " im fucking pissed at you " angry voice and threated to take away her freedoms because she walked away. she said that. to her visually upset child.
And another time my sister was trying to stand up for me after mom LITERALLY CALLED ME FAT and got mad at HER because she put me on a scale to prove her wrong. and made HER apologize
Listen, i can understand why she would have been mad for my sister for putting me on the scale. i get that. BUT YOU CALLED YOUR OWN FUCKING DAUGHTER FAT.
And mom paints my sister as some kinda villain, openly calling her a bitch, saying that she brings a dark cloud of dismay were ever she goes but theirs a reason why she acts the way she does mom. you treat her like she's a viper that makes everyone upset. thats way she hides in her room all day, thats why she hurt herself in the past. because you treat her like a snake.
This is why you have a son who doesn't talk to you mom. this is why the girl you took under your wing secretly hates you. this is why i feel like a burden.
even with the shade i threw at her she's a kinda person, make no mistake. but that doesn't mean she's a good mother. and i wish she could see how amazing my sister is.
and another thing as well that may not be as bad, but im still mad about it
well for context in fifth grade basically every kid bullied me. not adults helped me at all. so as a way of revenge i stole from their backpacks. my goal was just for them to either be nice to me out of fear or hate me so much they'd never talk to me again.
yes, i now realize that it wasn't what ive should have done and i take full responsibility for this. but at the time i didn't care how wrong it was. i just wanted them to stop bullying me.
not to the shock of anyone they found out and when i told them why i did it mom called me a parasite. and also said she'd hoped i got lice. ( because one of things i stole was a hairbrush )
Listen. why in GODS name would you say that you your 10-11 year old? like you can be mad, i understand but why are you name calling? thats not helping anyone. and that caused me to feel like i dont deserve the love that people give me because in the end, im just the parasite.
sorry for how rambly this is, im just really upset and wanted to vent.
