I've been awake for too long. Wayy too long. I've always wanted to be awake, to do fun stuff, hang out with my friends, have crushes, ect. Ever since 3rd started, I just wanted to shut my eyes and dream of being in another place. A place where I could be myself and no one was mean to me. I wanted to sleep. Forever and I still do. Every year I start over. I'm really tired of starting over. I attempt to sleep multiple times a day but It doesn't work. Why can't I sleep? What am I doing that's so wrong. I'm so tired of dealing with the same thing everyday. I feel pain in my chest every time I talk to someone. When they become my friend, I'm scared they'll leave me. That's the scary part of making friends. I've been awake for 15 years so when the time comes, I'll be able to sleep for good.
2022-2025 💛💛💛💛
