Happiness

My Story

My life were no going well. I always feel that empty and sad feeling in my heart. Externally, I look like an ordinary girl, without any emotional problem. Emotionally, I questioned what is my purpose in life, because I was so much insecure of my myself. I will not deny that I had dreams and goals, and I couldn't deny that things I had, many girls wanted to have, but I was not truly happy.

I was very shy since I can remember. I don't think it was something biological, because my parents, I meant, they were not necessarily extroverts, but they weren't shy at all.

As I was growing, some of my shyness was dying, but not quite. For example, at school, I was terrified before moving on to expose some work or raise my hand; now not. You know? Now is not shyness; now it's insecurity.

When I was a kid I had no friends, I was alone in the breaks and I don't spoke to anyone in class. My only friend was my neighbor, whom I considered my best friend, but eventually I realized that it was an idiotic bitch. In late 2012, my last year in elementary school, I started to hang out with two girls (Sunny and Nora), who eventually became in my best friends.

In high school, I got many more friends and overcame my fear of talking to other people. Not quite but I did. Nora and Sunny remained being my best friends. We had fights , some very serious, but we always fixed it .

After my first year in high school, Sunny, Nora and I became great friends of four girls. They were very different, insolents and a little dirty, but they were excellent girls.

After a while, I started to watch me and all them. Each and every one of them was someone in life; they were nice, sure of themselves, they had boyfriends, they went to parties every Saturday and having fun no matter what the other ones said. Instead I was ugly, fat, unsure of myself, I never had a boyfriend, not even had kissed someone.

Another year passed, and still had to live with that terrible and sad fact.

I started college, and believe it or not, I still not had a boyfriend or been kissed for someone. I started studying telematics. On Saturdays I went to a photography course. Finally I felt that I was someone in life.

My friends, I mean just Sunny and Nora, only saw occasionally, because they were too busy with their respective careers;Sunny was studying medicine; Nora, was studying systems engineering; and the other girls, I didn't know. We had lost contact and therefore our friendship.

I should mention that in my photography course there was a very cute boy named Sebastian, who sometimes flirted with me, or at least that's what I felt when he talked to me and the way he he approached me like if he wanted to kiss me.

One day, a Friday, Sebastián texted me to my Facebook asking me out with him, I unhesitatingly said yes. And that is where I thank God for letting me have virgin lips till the university, because, honestly it was worth the wait, now I couldn't imagine that another man gives me my first kiss.

Our relationship was based on understanding, love, sincerity, patience and communication. Eventually I realized that Sebastian was formerly a complete womanizer, but when he met me, changed their way of being (according to him).

Currently, we have completed college and we get married, we fulfill our goals and, later, will form a family. My friends, Sunny and Nora, are no longer my best friends, but we keep in touch.

And I'm finally happy.