Kalopsia (Compilation of Stories)

I : Neglect

I'm bleeding..

I feel.. So cold and sleepy..

"Kid.. You know we have to prioritize the direct family involved first, right?"

"Y-Yes Sir.."

My fingers and toes started to turn numb... I'm trying to calm my breathing but it's getting harder to take in as I feel how the blood was gushing on my side.

"Sir.. Can I.. Take a sit there instead?"

I then point the bench away from the crowd.. I'm worrying that the officer might get annoyed of my labored panting..

"Yeah-Yeah.."

He answers without much enthusiasm..

"T-Thank you.."

I'm so glad the given blanket was black or else it will be difficult to wash after.. Well.. Today is supposed to be a typical one so who would have expect.. It's truly amazing how things can go wrong in a snap..

I immediately take careful steps not to bother anyone while everything around me is hectic..

But.. Damn.. I feel horrible.. It's so cold.. And I'm.. Sleepy.. Is it okay to sleep?

I'm.. Really.. Really.. tired.

I hope Beam and Wayo were okay as well or else Madam and Sir are going to be sad.. Aww.. Shit.. Shit! I.. Have to press harder on the wound or it will be all over the blanket..

But.. Haha.. My hands.. and body are getting.. heavier..

I think I need--

Stupid me.. You heard them, right?.. We have to prioritize the main fami-- shit.. The stain is going to be hard to wash off.. Why is it running too much in the first place? I didnt expect it would be this messy..

Though.. Honestly.. I found myself sighing in relief.. Good thing I received the bullet for Beam..

Madam always reminds me to protect them.. Even if I still dumbly pushed them hard, I hope they won't get mad at me.. It must have been the adrenaline.. But I really feel bad now for accidentally pushing them too much causing my brother to scratch his wrist..

Ahh..

I bit my lower lip binding the words that were leaking from my mouth.. It must've been because of the pain?

Help..

That's.. Impossible for me.. Hah... I want to laugh at myself so badly.

In the end.. It's funny how I still wish to be not lonely..

To not die alone.

To be their son even for just one last time..

To.. Be able to at least once.. Call them Mom.. And Dad..

Hahah..

Right then.. Without warning.. Everything started to flash right before my eyes..

Everything..

The new years.. Birthdays.. Parties.. And Christmas of their family, that are without me..

The cheers, joy and happiness they share as a family, that is without me..

The pain, comfort and bond they share, with each other.. As a family.. Without me.

The me who can only watch from a distance..

Because me.. Is not a part.. of anything.

Hahaha..

Why did I even dare, to hope..