☠FreakShow☠ |L.S. AU| (Editing)

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Hey guys sorry I'm back I've had a busy week! I went to the Falling in Reverse concert, I was the first person to meet him, I was front row, my sister got sucked into a mosh pit. But somehow I'm the one whom body is crying on the inside. Also I have school work and my friend got in a bus crash.

Even though there has been a lot of stuff going on, I just want you guys to know that I will continue this book. Without a doubt, I love writing it and I am finishing it! So I hope you guys enjoy this chapter!

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There is a beautiful being above me smiling at me with pink swollen lips, tan skin, and pitch black eyes. I love every one of those, that and more. I loved him and I wasn't ashamed of if, I'm proud.

"I love you, Louis." I whispered.

I looked at Louis searching his eyes that have now gone blue, I start getting this bad feeling in the pit of my stomach when he just stares at me. I set up leaning on my arms he crawls off of me. "Lou.." I get no response he is still just staring at me. "Boo.. It's okay if you don't want to to say it back yet. "I say half-way lying, I want him to say it but I understand if he doesn't want to say it back yet. I watch as he looks away, gulps, then looks back at me.

"Are you sure?" Are the only words that come out of his mouth. I look at him dumbfounded. I look at him and he is completely serious. "I don't want you to say it if you're not sure." Louis speaks in a quiet tone, it's starting to scare me. I sit up completely -sitting Indian style.

"Louis.. I wouldn't have said it if I didn't mean it." I admit to him, I can feel my throat closing up. I'm worrying about what he's going to say next.

"I'm a really fucked up person. I'm the most terrible person that's ever walked the earth." Louis looks down, then looks back up as he grabs my hands. "I just want you to know that if you truly do love me, then you are loving a very terrible person."

"I don't think you're terrible, I think you're sweet, compassionate -I mean you've seen me cry twice, you have a great personality, you're cocky, sexy, and a little tiny teddy bear." I kiss his hand and scoot closer to him on the bed, he gulps again.

"I don't want to like fuck up and hurt you."

"You won't hurt me, I won't let you... I love you, okay?" I say wrapping him in an awkward hug, he wraps his arms around me. I feel Louis place a peck on my neck and then sighs. I pull back; my hands being place on his shoulders.

"I love you?" Louis spoke, but it came out as a question. Like he was afraid of my reaction. "I'm sorry, those words are weird to me, but I do mean them. I really do mean them, I'm not just saying it because I feel like I have to-" Louis rambled, I started chuckling as the bad feeling went away in my stomach. I knew he meant them, I didn't have a doubt about it. I gripped onto his shoulders and smashed my lips against his, he was surprised. I pulled back quickly. Louis stared back at me with a surprised face, he was dead-panned.

"So... you gonna help me clean this popcorn up?" I said referring to the mess on the bed, he nodded. I leaned over his lap and started picking it up, he quickly started helping. I picked up some of the popcorn and ate it, he did the same. I felt something drop into my hair, I felt Louis dig his finger in my hair and pull it out. I looked at him as he placed popcorn in his mouth, "Was that in my hair?"

"Yeah, I dropped it." Louis chuckled, I rolled my eyes.

"That's gross." I mumbled.

"About as gross as butt-sex, but aye I still do it." Louis chuckled, I gave him a disgust face. Louis shrugged and continued to eat popcorn off the bed.

"Is that all you think about - sex?" I ask.

"It is when you mouth is so close to my crotch." He says, I pause and look down to see my chin is on his pajama pants; I look back up. Louis smirks as he places another kernel in his mouth. I pull myself up and I look at Louis is still smirking.

"How many people have you had sex with?" I ask, curious to know his answer.

"None." Louis says, I am taken back his answer.

"So you're a virgin..." I state, he nods. "Really, you talk about sex a lot, seems like you've done it a lot."

"When you've never had sex, that's literally all you think about." Louis says placing the remains of the popcorn back in the bowl. "And when you have had sex it's the only thing you can talk about." He laughed and I chuckled. "But yeah I'm little ole virgin - call me fucking virgin Mary."

"But I don't like woman, I like you Louis. So no, I won't call you that." I said, he looks at me with a 'seriously' look. I smirk and cross my arms.

"You know what I fucking meant, you're a dick."

"Explains why you want me."

"Harold!" Louis gasps, I start uncontrollably laughing at my own joke. I can hear Louis laughing as well, he takes my hands as he laughs. "I'm supposed to be the one that makes sexual jokes in this relationship." Louis pushes me back and lays on top of me, while I still laugh at my stupidity. I start calming down and wrap my arms - protectively - around him.

"I love you." I chuckle, getting butterflies in my stomach as I wait for his response.

"And I love you." Louis says, I can feel his smirk as he cuddles deep into me. I can also feel his heart beating really fast, I like how he does that when he says those words.

I yawn and squeeze Louis tight, letting him know that I'm sleepy and I want to cuddle. Louis looks up and I look down at him, I bring my face closer and he kisses my lips. I flutter my eyes close as I do every time we kiss. Louis pulls back, smiles and then leans over to turn the lamp off. I can barely see him, only his silhouette.

Louis' face is right above mine and he leans down, giving me a peck on the nose. I feel my nose crinkle up and I can see the white of teeth, letting me know he's smiling. I smile back and wrap my arms tighter around him, he lays back down on top of me. He's so warm that it's making me body heat up and feel like a heating pad. "So warm." I say and he digs his face into my neck, hinting that he was probably blushing. "So, so warm" I fell him place a kiss on my neck. I giggle.

I snuggle deeper into him and let his warmth engulf me. I lightly skim my fingers across his spine as I close my eyes, I start smiling to my self as I feel chill bumps start forming on Louis skin. Louis then lays his hand on my hip and starts running his thumb back and forth, sending a cold shock through my body. I feel Louis smirk against my neck, telling me he accomplished in giving me cold chills.

I liked this feeling of Louis and I just laying with each other giving subtle touches that send each other's body into shock. Louis made me feel flustered wanted, loved, and protected. I don't think I will ever get used to it, but I like the feeling of it.

The feeling of having someone I love wrapping me in there warmth is the greatest thing ever. Louis might be older than I, but he's so much tinier; he is great for cuddling. I love that. Still having my eyes closed, and hand running down his spine, I slightly turn his way and place a kiss to his head. Louis wraps our legs in one another's, one of his legs ended up on my stomach. I took my free hand and placed it on it.

With our tangled and the subtle touched we are giving each other, I can feel myself slowly drifting off into a sleep. Louis is about to fall asleep cause his touches are slowing down. I smile at how cute we must look. Louis finally stops the touches but his hand is still on my hip and I can feel his slow, steady breath on my neck.

Louis chest presses against mine as he breathes in and out, making me want to fall asleep even more. I stop fighting the feeling and stop my hand in the small of his back and snuggle my face into his shoulder and let my self drift into a sleep.

"Good night Lou, I love you." I whisper.

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Guys I fill so terrible about just doing a filler, I hope it was enough. I had writers block, It's been a really fucked up week. I promise the next chapter will be a lot longer, I just needed to feed you guys your weekly dose of 'FreakShow.'

Will be edited later.