Lil!Tubbo (1-3) CG!SBI+Ranboo
Relationship: platonic friends
Triggers/content warnings: sh, tr@nsphobes, dysphoria, crying, breakdowns, panic attacks, t-slur (I can reclaim and it's tagged with numbers)
Deadname is: Raina
Plot: Tubbo had recently came out as trans to his community, and they were really supportive, until a single comment turned into a whole Twitter thread. He felt so sad and dysphoric, he sh'd, his friends found him little on the bathroom floor and took care of him.
(Help I suck ar explaining things)
(It's currently 9/8/22 and I started this chapter 7/14/22. I gotta finish it today)
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Tubbo had come out last night. He felt so much better now that he came out. He checked Twitter, and saw that he was trending.
Congrats for telling us Toby :) it read. He smiled, and scrolled through the tab for a while. But one tweet caught his eye.
DaBoiz69420 tweeted: Even if ToBy came out last night, SHE is still Raina to us. Isn't that right guys?
Then a whole thread was under it.
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Smartgirl20 tweeted: don't say that! HE is Toby, not Raina. Respect his feelings. If you were a real Cloudpuff, then you would respect his decision to come out to us.
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MichealAftonSimp69 tweeted: don't say that about Toby! He is a real boy, despite what you idiots say or think.
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Toby.Updates tweeted: you should respect his decisions. I am his update account (made by a fan) and I respected him and changed it from "Raina.Updates" to "Toby.Updates", even though he didn't change his account names.
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Nobrainerboy100 tweeted: dude I agree. Raina is a girl and will always be one. He shouldn't be a tr4nny, that's just plain dumb 😂 [insert ugly emoji]
The majority of his fans defended him, but that one tweet under the thread hurt his heart. Was he really not a boy? No. Tubbo is a real boy. Despite what these imbeciles say.
But if two people think it, what if thousands of others do?
Tubbo shut off his PC. Then he looked down at his arm. All of his pain went away once he cut it.
He walked to his bathroom, and looked in the mirror. He teared up at the fact that his chest wasn't flat. All he had were sports bras, they didn't work enough. He started to cry more, and those turned into sobs. He collapsed on the floor, pulling at his badly cut hair.
He couldn't bear to look at himself in the mirror. Then he saw his razor. He doesn't care if Ranboo and the others take it away, he just wants to relive his growing pain.
One cut turned into two, which turned into three, than four, than five, then all over both of his arms. He watched as the red liquid fell down, only to be caught by a piece of tissue. But he had to do more. It didn't do enough, it didn't relieve his pain.
He only started to cry more, now the fuzzy feeling creeping up behind his brain. Why doesn't he just slip right now? So that's what he did.
He slipped to the age of 1, crying even harder. He couldn't hear the front door opening and closing. Ranboo was home.
Ranboo POv:
I walk into me and Tubbo's house, but I heard crying? Oh crap did he slip while I was gone? The sound was coming from the bathroom... oh please don't tell me... (A/N: YES RANBOO ITS WHAT YOU GODDAMN THINK) anyways, I just walked to the bathroom, praying it was safe. Well, it wasn't. Tubbo was crying on the floor, his arms covered in blood, along with the floor.
Tubbo looked up, staring at Ranboo as he grabbed bandages from the cabinet and kneeled down. "Tubbo?" Ranboo said in a questioning tone as he wrapped Tubbo's arms in bandages. "Don' 'e 'ad." Tubbo looked like he was going to cry, tears threatening to fall.
"No, no, no, no, I'm not mad. I just wanna know why you did it again, you were doing so well!"
"It 'reen pe'ple. Day tay dat I not 'eal man" Tubbo sobbed, now being carried by Ranboo to the living room. "It's okay baby (PLATONIC), your a real boy, just like me!"
Tubbo had calmed down, and Ranboo was calling Phil to come down to their place with the boys.
Tubbo was nearly asleep, taking slow and deep breaths.
*Time skip bc I need to finish this ASAP*
After a long talk on why Tubbo is a real boy and how some people are mean, he was FINALLY asleep with the others chatting on the room. And after doing some tweets, no one really misgendered Tubbo ever again :D
FINALLY HOLY SHIT ITS FINALLY DONE!! I kinda rushed the ending but who cares bc new chapter alert!!!
Anyways, I got church tomorrow and I'm not happy >:[
See you s00n!
-Wilbur
