( axeben and they have an established relationship or something?) (TW SUICIDE! DO NOT READ IF THAT WILL TRIGGER YOU!!)
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axel had just woken up, it was a regular tuesday morning. he got out of bed and left the bunks to feed vincent. the bird was sitting on the table, staring at axel before flying over to him.
"hey buddy" axel said in a tired voice while pouring vincent food. the bird cawed back at him before eating.
deejay left the bunks with a yawn. "morning axel." he said stretching. "morning deejay, howd you sleep?" axel responded, wanting to enjoy the peace.
after a few minutes benatar and puff had joined the two, but axel was strangely quiet compared to his normal self. the others shrugged it off as him being tired. they just finished filming another music video the night before, so everyone was tired.
but the weirdness didnt end there. axel was fairly clingy for the day, wanting to spend as much time as possible with the band members, even offering to take them out to a diner they all loved, and payed for it!
"thanks dude!" puff said facing axel with a mouthful of food. "no problem puff" axel said with a smile. "seriously thank you dear" benatar said giving axel a kiss on the cheek. axel blushed and held his hand. deejay nodded while he ate. this was all so sweet, it was a shame that this was gonna be the last memories axel had with the band.
after everyone finished eating, deejay and puff went back to the bus, while benatar and axel went out to pick up supplies, (beer, toilet paper, microwavable food) benatar decided to ask axel about his odd behavior.
"axy, are you feeling alright dear? youve been distant." benatar said quietly. axel looked at him then smiled "of course honey! just a little tired." he said calmly. 'yeah. tired of life.' he thought to himself. "alright then, if you beed to talk im here." benatar responded.
a few hours later, the band were playing mortal combat together, axel was beating everyone, as per usual.
"damn it!" puff yelled out after losing for the third time in a row. "im never gonna beat you man!" axel laughed "guess youll have to train then." he said passing his controler to deejay. 'i mean he wont get the chance to.' he thought to himself. he shook his head trying to push off the dark thoughts that started to cloud his head.
around sunset, axel took benatar out to the woods. it was like their spot. they sat together and watched the sunset ontop of the bus. they sat together in comfortable silence. after this sunset though, benatar would forever regret not talking with axel while he couldve.
the pair headed inside after the sun had fully set, axel had grabbed a pen and paper then left to the bathroom. not before giving benatar a kiss, "i love you, remember that okay?" he said with a small smile. "of course dear, i love you too." benatar responded. with that axel left to the bathroom.
after a while the others got worried. "hes been in there for like three hours!" puff cried out, pissed off. "puff calm down" deejay started "hes probably writing something." benatar looked at the two then at the door worried. 'this isnt normal..' he thought to himself, but let it go.
after another two hours, puff got sick of waiting. "thats it! i dont care if hes jacking off, i need to get in there!" he said standing up and walking to the bathroom. before the others could say anything, he kicked the door open.
he wished he never did.
inside the bathroom was something worse than anyone couldve imagined. axel, laying in the bathtub with an empty pill bottle, a pen and a note.
"AXEL!!" puff screamed running into the room, deejay dialed 911, and benatar ran over to axel.
"AXEL? AXEL WAKE UP!!" he yelled, starting to sob, while hugging axels body.
while benatar cried, puff grabbed the note axel had written, he could barely make it out, but it said this.
'hey guys, if your reading this, i think my plan worked. and im dead. hah. sorry, im not the best at explaining how i feel, but ive been planning this for a while. but you three are why i stuck around. you made it worthwhile.
to puff, im sorry for always picking on your height and telling you that you sucked at mortal combat -you do though-. im glad we had our laughs.
to deejay, im sorry for never hanging around just the two of us, i wanted to but you get busy with puff pretty often, keep track of the other two for me? someone needs to watch those idiots.
to benatar, im sorry i didnt tell you about this, i didnt want you to try and get me help, or for you to feel bad. you made me feel so loved when we were together, i wouldnt trade it for the world. youve made me the happiest man on the earth, stay happy okay? someone else needs you just as much as i do. i love you.
-axl chains'
puff burst into tears reading it. deejay put down the phone and ran to the other two. by the time the paramedics arrived, it was far too late. axel was long gone, and the martians went with the paramedics to the hospital.
a few weeks later, his funeral was held. it was a mess, puff couldnt give his speech without crying, deejay had to hold back benatar from jumping into axels casket.
after his death, the band went into retirement. they couldnt keep going after the loss. eventually they all moved out of the bus. puff kept it, deejay and puff moved on but benatar never could. he was never the same again. he still kept in contact with the other two, but it wasnt very often.
and something always kept repeating in his head.
"god i just wanna hug him again.."
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wow! my first real fanfic! it sucked
i dont have a proof reader or anything (sorry lmao) but i hoped you guys liked it! this is dumb-
i like angst
-zombie
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yfm oneshots?? idk what this is
Fanfictionim not even good at writing this is mainly brain dumping, uh expect alot of axel angst?
