Another Try

Chapter 4

Hadley POV

I open my eyes to complete silence. Glancing at my clock, I see that it reads 9:43 AM. Shit. To anyone else, this would be a totally normal situation to find themself in, but for me it means that something is definitely wrong. I roll out of bed and drag myself out of my room and head down the hall to my kitchen, taking in everything around me. I stop right as I enter the kitchen and take in the sight before me.

An array of cereals spilled out of the floor. Plastic bowls and spoons thrown across the kitchen floor. And in the middle of it all, two little blonde hair, blue eyed toddlers, giggling and munching happily off the mess of cereal between them.

I smiled happily to myself, taking in the moment before making my presence known. Weston... Marley... I said, watching the two looking at each other before turning towards me. Mommy! They screamed before running towards me, hugging onto my legs. We wanted cereal, Weston says while smiling up at me. I can tell, bub! I laughed, taking in the mess Ill be cleaning up. You two run and get dressed so we can get you to daycare I told them. They ran off leaving me to attempt to put the kitchen back together.

This definitely wasnt how I pictured my life 5 years ago, a single mother to 4-year-old twins, but I knew that I put myself into the situation. Its been 5 years since I walked away from the life I had always wanted, from the love of my life, but I knew that it was better this way. Jase was everything I ever wanted. We were high school loves. He was my first everything and who I was ready to spend the rest of my life with, despite what my family thought.

They never liked Jase and I being together. My father claimed that he wasnt what I needed in my life, that he wasnt going to go anywhere in life and would only drag me down with him. I spent many nights arguing with my father about how Jase was all ever wanted in my life but his response was always the same, Youre only a child. You dont know what you need in your life. You barely know who you are. Thats why I didnt hesitate to take the scholarship for the University of Alabama and never look back. My parents were happy that I was going to college, and I was happy to be getting as far away from them as possible.

Everything was perfect. Jase and I had an apartment together, I was one semester away from being a physical therapist and he was doing what he loved, working on cars. I only wish it all could have stayed that perfect forever.

Flashback

This better be important Hadley. I was 2 episodes away from finally catching up on Shameless Rae huffed as she plopped down onto the couch beside me.

Rae was the only person I knew to come to, and she never asked questions when I showed up pounding on her door at 1 AM.

We sat in silence until I could find the words that I knew, without a doubt, would change everything,

Rae, Im pregnant.

Oh my god. OH My GOD! ARE YOU SERIOUS! this is great Had! Jase is gonna be so excited! HOLY SHIT IM GONNA BE AN AU-

Rae I cant do it.. I said barely above a whisper, tears streaming silently down my face. I cant do that to him. Im not ready. Hes not ready. My parents.. Oh god my parents! I cried out as she moved across the couch to hug me.

Its all gonna work out Hadley. Youll have us by your side, and everything is gonna be fine!

Rae, I cant.

End flashback

The sound of little feet thundering towards me brings me back to the present just as they turn the corner before barreling towards where Im sitting on the couch. Their two smiling faces make all the struggles and pain worth it. Well, almost all of the pain... I cant help the feeling of guilt I have for not telling Jase the real reason I left, which is exactly why I need to go back.

Ready munchkins? I ask as the twin run to grab their backpacks Yes mommy! They yell as they run towards the door. They both grab my hands as we head out of our apartment and down to the car. After dropping them off at daycare, I begin the 2-hour drive back to Tuscaloosa Alabama.

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I follow my GPS to the address Rae sent me for her apartment. Shes really been my best friend through the past few years, and I know it wasnt an easy situation. Being caught in between me and Jase during the breakup was rough, plus having to keep the twins a secret from Jase even when she didnt want to. Shes always been extremely honest with me throughout everything which is exactly why I knew I needed to see her and get her honest opinion before I take any next steps. Lets just hope she doesnt kill me after hearing what I have to say